I swam my usual amount at the pool this morning and it felt good. It was a lot harder to stay the course because I was so chatty but I persisted and achieved it. I'm glad I did.
I moved into transmit-mode after three months. This is the way it goes. My Jeckyl & Hyde cycle is 3 months long. Now the challenge is to continue being a farmer to steady myself. It's easy to be a farmer when I am in receive-mode. It's easier to fly up to the moon when I'm in transmit-mode. So I make myself go to bed and sleep and I must swim to calm down and find my center. This is a hard won lesson. Getting sleep and exercise and proper nutrition. It saves my life.
I never stop learning and performing behavioral experiments on my mood brain.
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