Monday, September 30, 2024

Kris Kristofferson’s songs felt as big and nuanced as life itself

Forged in patience and courage, his songbook captured life and death in staggering detail.


Singer-songwriter and actor Kris Kristofferson at the 1971 Schaefer Music Festival in New York City. (Don Paulsen/Michael Ochs Archives/Getty Images)
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Imagine writing a song as good as “Sunday Mornin’ Comin’ Down.” It must have felt like building the Brooklyn Bridge with your bare hands. “There’s something in a Sunday that makes a body feel alone,” the ballad’s demolished narrator sings through his hangover as he embarks on a weekend stroll in the direction of the void.

Instantly, your body feels everything his body feels. The dull agony of simply waking up. The relief of dousing a headache with two beers — one for breakfast and “one more for dessert.” The cool tingle of that “cleanest dirty shirt” on your back. The sound of your shoes plodding down an empty sidewalk, their forsaken rhythm mingling with the laughter of children, and the clang of church bells, and the smell of home cooking as it twists out of a kitchen window in Looney Tunes contours. If you’re really listening to all this, you’ll feel desolation, then wonderment. How does a song about falling apart feel this sturdy, this colossal, this magnificent?

When people use words like “magic” and “genius” to explain the provenance of great art, what they’re usually talking about is “experience,” which is something Kris Kristofferson had loads of. The Texas-born singer-songwriter, who died Saturday at 88, seems to have lived nearly half a dozen lives before he even got to Nashville. In college, he was a Golden Gloves boxer who wrote short stories that were published in the Atlantic. In 1958, he went overseas on a Rhodes Scholarship to study literature at Oxford but left before earning his degree to become a helicopter pilot in the U.S. Army. He finally relocated to Nashville in the mid-’60s, patiently waiting for the perfect moment to make the impossible leap from janitor to professional songwriter.

He was good at everything, which was a strange way of being lost. Fortunately, he touched down in Tennessee when the minds of Johnny Cash and Willie Nelson were approaching full bloom, when the songwriters of Music Row were beginning to think more like poets, when the listening public had decided to broaden its notions of how much life and death a country song could convey. Also fortuitous: The mop that Kristofferson pushed for a living had been sloshing across the floors of the Columbia Studios. This reportedly allowed him to float a demo in the direction of Cash, who eventually recorded “Sunday Mornin’ Comin’ Down” in 1970. In Cash’s godly baritone, the song sounded indestructible. More like the pyramids at Giza than some bridge. But when Kristofferson recorded his existentially lonesome rendition for a self-titled debut that same year, God was nowhere to be found.

Loneliness and togetherness, living and dying. These are common paradoxes in country music. But very few songwriters explored their symbiotic balance with greater nuance than Kristofferson. Yes, “freedom’s just another word for nothin’ left to lose,” he sang, plain-voiced and righteous, on his signature hit, “Me and Bobby McGee” — but why does that line sometimes sound silver medal profound compared with “them windshield wipers slappin’ time,” their soggy friction so perfectly capturing our messy, mundane journey through existence? Forget about freedom for a second. Is death when it stops raining?

All these layers of philosophical detail made Kristofferson a songwriting giant in country music, just as his onstage charisma quickly caught the attention of various Hollywood directors (Sam Peckinpah, Martin Scorsese) who cast him in their films throughout the 1970s. So his big life somehow grew wider. In the ’80s, he began pushing his political beliefs to the fore, speaking out against U.S. involvement in Central America both in the press and in song. In 1985, he settled into legend status as a member of the Highwaymen, the storied outlaw supergroup with Cash, Nelson and Waylon Jennings, in which Kristofferson emerged as the most outspoken pacifist of the four. In a 1991 Highwaymen interview, when asked about the state of the nation on the brink of the Iraq War, Kristofferson said, “It reminds me a lot of the flag-waving and choreographed patriotism that we had back in Nazi Germany a half a century ago … [with a] lap dog media that’s cranking out propaganda for the administration that’d make a Nazi blush.” Nuance was a resource he saved for his songs.

Inside his music, though, his fearlessness felt delicate, even when he seemed to be facing down death. Kristofferson spent the final decades of his life touring through various health problems, and at a concert in 2017, upon finding his “cleanest dirty shirt” for the thousandth time while strumming the aching chords of “Sunday Mornin’,” he flashed an intimate grin and told the audience, “I’m wearin’ it.

This was a laugh line, a tether for us to grab onto as we circled the darkness, and most certainly a lie. There’s no way this beautiful man had retrieved that beautiful shirt out of his hamper. But what’s really clean in this dirty world? Where does our living end and our dying begin? Are we ever truly alone, or are we always? If you can’t hear the answers in a Kris Kristofferson song, try the windshield wipers.

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Life is only available in the present. It is necessary to return to this moment to be in touch with life as it really is." Thich Nhat Hanh in 'The Blooming of a Lotus'

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“To live, we must die every instant. We must perish again and again in the storms that make life possible.” Thich Nhat Hanh

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Having the toothache helps us see that not having the toothache is a very pleasant feeling. Thich Nhat Hanh

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"Don't waste your life." Our life is made of days and hours, and each hour is precious. Thich Nhat Hanh

"Sit just to enjoy your sitting; you don't need to attain any goal. Each moment of sitting meditation brings you back to life." — Thích Nhất Hạnh

To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself. ~ Thich Nhat Hanh

"Silence is essential. We need silence, just as much as we need air, just as much as plants need light. If our minds are crowded with words and thoughts, there is no space for us." - THICH NHAT HANH

"As members of the human family, we should learn to remove all discrimination, all separation and all anger" - The power of not-blaming, told in a story of a hammer, a nail, and two hands:

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“Understanding and love aren’t two things. When you understand you can’t help but love. And when you love, you act in a way that can relieve the suffering of people.” Thich Nhat Hanh

"Around us, life bursts with miracles, a glass of water, a ray of sunshine, a leaf, a caterpillar, a flower, laughter, raindrops." –Thich Nhat Hanh

"Awakening can be contagious. The awakening of one person may bring about the awakening of other people. And peace, awakening, and enlightenment always begin with you." - Thich Nhat Hanh

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Never's just the echo of forever, lonesome as a love that might have been. Let me go on lovin' and believin' 'til it's over. Please don't tell me how the story ends. Kris Kristofferson, RIP (June 22, 1936 – September 28, 2024)

Three Precious Memories of Thich Nhat Hanh

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Why did Bob Dylan lie about his childhood?

Bob Dylan - 1962 

Why did Bob Dylan lie about his childhood?

Myth-making has always been a part of music. Throughout history, artists have always taken on characters or exaggerated parts of themselves for their public persona. But in the case of Bob Dylan, that tipped over into an outright, bald-faced lie.

For a long time, Dylan told the world that he’d had a troubled childhood. According to the singer, he was a social outcast from his early years, running away from home along with all its normalcy and conformity. He struck out on his own, seeking out the weirdos and freaks he felt a kinship with. His story was that, by 13, he was a runaway kid with the circus, hoping for the world’s adventures to open up in front of him. 

“I was with the carnival off and on for six years,” Dylan told Cynthia Gooding in one of his earliest recorded interviews. “[I was doing] just about everything. I was a clean-up boy. I used to be on the main line on the Ferris Wheel, just run rides.”

As far as myth-making goes, this one is not without humour. Imagining a young Bob Dylan strapping some bratty kids into a carousel or putting out hay for the circus animals is a silly image that is worth dallying upon. Maybe he thought it would give his music more credibility if he came from the furthest extent of social isolation. If he was raised in an atmosphere of utter madness, would it make his underdog social commentary seem wiser and more powerful? Much like the 1960s belief that doing as much LSD as humanly possible would let you unlock the true meaning of life, Dylan seemed to think that a childhood of strife would act as a key to the podium of the voice of the people, even if that strife was entirely invented.

In reality, Dylan’s childhood was utterly normal. His family were working class, but they were comfortable. He grew up as Robert Zimmerman in the industrial town of Hibbing in Minnesota, where he had food on the table, a school to attend, friends to play with and space to be a normal child. Dylan’s father and uncle ran a furniture shop, and his family were part of the close-knit Jewish community in the area. It was the absolute picture of American working-class normalcy — not a trapeze in sight.

Instead, Dylan had the upbringing that the overwhelming majority of musicians speak of. He grew up listening to the radio, falling in love with the country and blues sounds he heard as a child before getting into rock and roll as a teenager. He started bands at school and played covers of Little Richard and Elvis Presley, enjoying the typical high school rockstar experience.

By all accounts, Zimmerman was the epitome of the small-town kid with tortured artist daydreams. By the time he finished high school, he’d begun introducing himself as Bob Dylan, taking the surname from his new interest in Dylan Thomas’ poetry. He’d also cast off mainstream rock and roll for the darker, moodier world of folk, stating, “I knew that when I got into folk music, it was more of a serious type of thing. The songs are filled with more despair, more sadness, more triumph, more faith in the supernatural, much deeper feelings.” He was exactly the kind of person you meet in your early 20s at the bar of some local venue, thinking he’s the second coming of musical Christ, or Jim Morrison, or even, in fact, Dylan himself. 

It took until 1960 for Dylan to become the social dropout he claimed he had been since he was a child. He left college and ran off to New York, where he slowly became the folk legend we know him as now.

It is unknown why or when he made up the circus lies, but he stuck by it until he was inevitably found out. He’s quoted as saying, “All the truth in the world adds up to one big lie,” suggesting that myth-making or fiction feeding never felt bad to him. His strange circus obsession endured as an image he’s returned to throughout his career. From the circus-style poster designs he has always loved to putting on his own equivalent of a travelling freak show during his Rolling Thunder Revue as he took the biggest names in rock and folk out on the road for a chaotic tour, it seems to be an atmosphere he’s fixated on.

It could be argued that Dylan is a phoney and that his made-up childhood was a questionable attempt to feign poverty or make himself appear worse off to cash in on the social currency of struggle. It could be seen as another eye-rolling example of comfortable artists seeming to think that hardship and instability are cool, while people who have actually been raised in volatile environments like that are rarely afforded the same opportunity. Or, on the other hand, it could be a silly little story that does nothing but add to the mystery around Dylan, deployed by the artist to entertain himself in the midst of a never-ending tour of interviews.

After spending weeks following Dylan’s circus-like Rolling Thunder Revue, writer Sam Shepherd considered Dylan’s myths and lies, seeming to conclude that it all served to empower him and help him step into some brighter light of artistic glory and potential. He wrote, “Some myths are poisonous to believe in, but others have the capacity for changing something inside us, even if it’s only for a minute or two.” One More Cup of Coffee Before I go to the valley Below (4 minute video)

"Blake thought that if you were called by the Divine to be creative, you were obligated," Kristofferson says. "He said that if you buried your talent, sorrow and desperation would pursue you throughout life, and after death, shame and confuse you until eternity. For a young guy like me who wanted to be creative against everybody else's advice, that was powerful stuff."

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Kris Kristofferson, rugged star of song and screen, dies at 88

He drew acclaim as a poet laureate of longing with songs such as “Me and Bobby McGee,” and starred with Barbra Streisand in “A Star is Born."


Kris Kristofferson (David Redfern/Getty Images)
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Kris Kristofferson, a singer-songwriter whose trove of country-pop hits such as “Me and Bobby McGee” and “Help Me Make It Through the Night” pushed him to the forefront of American popular composers and whose gritty-voiced, easygoing sex appeal propelled him to starring roles in Hollywood, died Sept. 28 at his home in Maui. He was 88.

A family spokeswoman, Ebie McFarland, confirmed the death but did not provide a cause.

In a musical genre known for performers with hardscrabble roots, Mr. Kristofferson stood out as an Air Force brat who developed a passion for the English Romantic poet William Blake while at Oxford on a Rhodes scholarship. He also harbored secret songwriting ambitions.

Fulfilling his family’s expectations, he spent years piloting helicopters as an Army Airborne Ranger. But in 1965, then-Capt. Kristofferson quit a promising military career to pursue songwriting in Nashville — and supported himself as a janitor at a recording studio on the city’s fabled Music Row, among other jobs.

“Blake thought that if you were called by the Divine to be creative, you were obligated,” he once told the London Independent. “He said that if you buried your talent, sorrow and desperation would pursue you throughout life, and after death, shame and confuse you until eternity. For a young guy like me who wanted to be creative against everybody else’s advice, that was powerful stuff.”

His marriage to his high school sweetheart imploded. In a letter, his mother essentially disowned him. Johnny Cash, who saw in Mr. Kristofferson a kindred rebel spirit and soon became one of his ardent backers, offered a sarcastic consolation: “It’s always nice to get a letter from home, ain’t it Kris?”

Mr. Kristofferson’s persistence was legendary. He was pushing a broom when he first pitched a few songs to Cash, who turned him down. A year or two later, while working a side job as a helicopter pilot for Gulf Coast oil rigs, he borrowed a chopper and flew it to Cash’s home in the hope of making an impression.

“The truth is I almost landed on the roof of his house … and he wasn’t even there,” Mr. Kristofferson told the Tampa Bay Times. “His groundskeeper came out and got the tape. But John liked the story enough that he made up that I got out of the helicopter with a beer in one hand and a tape in the other.”

In short order, Mr. Kristofferson was attracting attention for his sophisticated compositions juxtaposing freedom and loneliness, romance and loss, tenderness and a degree of carnality that was groundbreaking and controversial in that era of country music.

His rugged brand of sensitivity brought him acclaim as a poet laureate of intimacy and longing. “He is the Marlboro Man with a tender heart,” arts critic Christine Arnold once wrote in the Miami Herald.

Mr. Kristofferson sang with a raw, uncultivated baritone that, coupled with his rudimentary guitar skills, was inordinately expressive and moving. His songs were marked by simple melodies, poignant details and scattered wisdom. “Me and Bobby McGee” is the tale of a drifter (“feeling nearly as faded as my jeans”) who briefly finds love with a woman on the road. The chorus declares, “Freedom’s just another word for nothin’ left to lose.”

His “Sunday Mornin’ Comin’ Down” was a masterly portrait of a man with a hangover who alternates in desperation for redemption or another pull at the bottle: “The beer I had for breakfast wasn’t bad, so I had one more for dessert. Then I fumbled through my closet, for my clothes, and found my cleanest dirty shirt.”

“The Pilgrim: Chapter 33” was a case study of a haunted renegade, based partly on Cash. “He’s a poet, he’s a picker,” Mr. Kristofferson wrote, “a pilgrim and a preacher, and a problem when he’s stoned. He’s a walkin’ contradiction, partly truth and partly fiction, takin’ ev’ry wrong direction on his lonely way back home.”

His gentle opening line in “Help Me Make It Through the Night” — “Take the ribbon from your hair, shake it loose and let it fall” — sets the scene for a sorrowful tryst: “I don’t care what’s right or wrong, I don’t try to understand, Let the devil take tomorrow, Lord tonight I need a friend.”

The song earned Mr. Kristofferson a Grammy Award for country song of the year in 1971, the first of his three Grammy wins in addition to a Grammy for lifetime achievement in 2014. Mr. Kristofferson was inducted into the Songwriters Hall of Fame in 1985 and the Country Music Hall of Fame in 2004.

Willie Nelson once likened Mr. Kristofferson’s lyrics to great literature “whether you sing them or read them. They’re words to live by, and that’s about as much praise as you can say about any writer.”

Hollywood beckons

It was ultimately a matter of time before Hollywood discovered Mr. Kristofferson, whose laconic charisma was exemplified by his deep-set blue eyes, rakish smile and full beard.

He debuted in his friend Dennis Hopper’s experimental “The Last Movie” (1971), filmed in Peru. (“All those Hollywood people in the cocaine capital of the world,” the notoriously hard-living Mr. Kristofferson recalled decades later. “It was insane.”)

He was a drug-dealing ex-pop singer in “Cisco Pike” (1972) and the next year starred as outlaw Billy in “Pat Garrett & Billy the Kid.” He played a divorced rancher who becomes Ellen Burstyn’s love interest in “Alice Doesn’t Live Here Anymore” (1974), directed by Martin Scorsese.

The role that defined his career was the ill-fated alcoholic rock star in the 1976 remake of “A Star is Born,” co-starring Barbra Streisand. He and the film were savaged by critics, but it was a box-office sensation. He also portrayed a gridiron star in “Semi-Tough” (1977) opposite Burt Reynolds and a renegade trucker in “Convoy” (1978) with Ali MacGraw, among many other parts, while simultaneously playing music to capacity crowds in arenas.

But Mr. Kristofferson’s stratospheric rise as one of the top draws in movies and music soon stalled amid a series of professional and personal traumas. First there was his starring role in the disastrous “Heaven’s Gate” (1980), a movie western plagued by massive cost overruns and off-camera conflicts.

At the same time, his second marriage, to singer-songwriter Rita Coolidge, was melting down amid what she later characterized as his emotional abuse, habit of downing two bottles of Jack Daniel’s a day, and chronic infidelity. Steamy nude scenes from a movie he made with actress Sarah Miles were reprinted in Playboy magazine, which Coolidge considered a final indignity.

Feeling “adrift” after his marriage crumbled, Mr. Kristofferson managed to curb his drinking. He eventually moved to Maui and became increasingly outspoken in liberal politics and human rights activism. Long off the country charts, he played club dates and recorded solo albums for small labels.

He began to resurrect his musical career in 1985 when he began touring with Cash, Nelson and Waylon Jennings as a supergroup called the Highwaymen. Between 1985 and 1995, they recorded three albums: two on Columbia Records and one for Liberty Records. Their Columbia works produced three chart singles, including the No. 1 “Highwayman” in 1985.

The group, dubbed “the Mount Rushmore of country music” was featured in a 2016 documentary/concert film, “The Highwaymen: Friends Till the End,” part of the PBS “American Masters” series. In the film, Mr. Kristofferson offered the following descriptions of his fellow musicians: “Willie’s the outlaw coyote. Waylon’s the riverboat gambler. I’m the revolutionary communist radical, and John is the father of our country.”

He later took a range of supporting acting parts and was compelling as a racist sheriff in filmmaker John Sayles’s border town drama “Lone Star” (1996). He also played a vampire-hunter named Whistler in the “Blade” franchise.

Mr. Kristofferson once told the Herald that he had no great drive to become a Hollywood star.

“I was really trying for a while just to experience as much as I could because I wanted to be a writer,” he said. “You know, Jack London held every job there was. And I tried to. It’s terrific for what I do. The task of portraying somebody is a lot easier if you’ve been a lot of different people.”

From the military to music

Kristoffer Kristofferson, his first name reflecting his partial Swedish heritage, was born in Brownsville, Tex., on June 22, 1936. His father, then in the Army Air Corps, became an Air Force major general. His mother was a homemaker.

He grew up drawn to the unvarnished, emotional vocals of Hank Williams and wrote his first tune at 11, a Williams-inspired ditty he called “I Hate Your Ugly Face.” He completed high school in San Mateo, Calif. While at California’s Pomona College, he earned two prizes in a national collegiate short story competition sponsored by the Atlantic Monthly. He also became a Golden Gloves boxer and made the Phi Beta Kappa academic honor society while serving as an Army ROTC commander.

He graduated from Pomona in 1958 and, on a Rhodes scholarship, pursued his studies on Blake while struggling to write novels. In 1960, he left Oxford without a degree and soon married his high school girlfriend, Frances Beer, and joined the Army as a commissioned officer.

While stationed in Germany, Mr. Kristofferson began to rebel against the trajectory of his life. He drank heavily and wrecked cars and motorcycles. Seeking greater adventure, he volunteered for Vietnam, only to discover his next assignment would be teaching English at the U.S. Military Academy at West Point.

His platoon leader, impressed by Mr. Kristofferson’s songs, connected him with an aunt, country songwriter Marijohn Wilkin. Her encouragement led Mr. Kristofferson to visit Nashville in July 1965 for a two-week leave that decided his future.

The next year, he wrote “Vietnam Blues,” a stinging rebuke of antiwar protesters that became a top-20 country single for singer Dave Dudley. (The song reflected Mr. Kristofferson’s rightward political leanings before his beliefs took a hard left turn, the result of talking to friends who served in Vietnam.)

Janis Joplin, with whom the songwriter had a brief affair, recorded “Me and Bobby McGee,” days before her death in 1970 from a heroin overdose at 27. Released in 1971, it became her only No. 1 single.

In 1970, the year Monument Records released Mr. Kristofferson’s first album, three of his songs, including Cash’s interpretation of “Sunday Mornin’ Comin’ Down,” became No. 1 country singles. Ray Price’s aching performance of the bittersweet breakup lament “For the Good Times” also became a pop hit. Sammi Smith’s sensual rendering of “Help Me Make It Through the Night” became her signature.

His most successful year as a recording artist was 1973. Inspired by a visit to Nashville’s Evangel Temple, pastored by the son of country legend Hank Snow, he wrote and recorded the simple, eloquent gospel ballad “Why Me,” his only No. 1 country single. He and Wilkin co-wrote the modern gospel standard “One Day At a Time.” He and Coolidge shared a Grammy for their duet on Mr. Kristofferson’s dissolute, pessimistic “From the Bottle to the Bottom.”

From 2004 to 2015, Mr. Kristofferson experienced progressive memory loss. Doctors told him that the worsening condition was caused either by Alzheimer’s or by dementia that was brought on by blows to the head he suffered in his athletic youth.

He said in an interview with Rolling Stone Country that it got so bad, he sometimes couldn’t remember what he was doing from one moment to the next.

In 2016, a doctor decided to test Kristofferson for Lyme disease, which came back positive. It was possible he picked it up years ago while in Vermont for six weeks filming the 2007 movie “Disappearances.”

In addition to his third wife, Lisa Meyers, with whom he had five children, survivors include two children from his first marriage; a daughter from his second marriage; and seven grandchildren.

At a 2015 ceremony sponsored by a music industry charity, singer-songwriter Bob Dylan described Mr. Kristofferson’s early impact on staid, traditionalist Nashville.

“Everything was all right until — until — Kristofferson came to town,” he said. “Oh, they ain’t seen anybody like him. He came into town like a wildcat that he was, flew a helicopter into Johnny Cash’s backyard, not your typical songwriter. And he went for the throat.”

Staff writer Adam Bernstein contributed to this report. 

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America is a Gun

 

Here’s a poem for today, September 30, 2024

America Is a Gun

by Brian Bilston

England is a cup of tea.

France, a wheel of ripened brie.

Greece, a short, squat olive tree.

America is a gun.

 

Brazil is football on the sand.

Argentina, Maradona's hand.

Germany, an oompah band.

America is a gun.

 

Holland is a wooden shoe.

Hungary, a goulash stew.

Australia, a kangaroo.

America is a gun.

 

Japan is a thermal spring.

Scotland is a highland fling.

Oh, better to be anything

than America as a gun.

 

Brian Bilston is the author of You Took the Last Bus Home. Unbound, 2021. 

 

Why I Chose This Poem

My family and I spent last summer in Berlin, Germany. Guns are illegal there. Your bicycle might get stolen, but you’ll never, ever get shot. There’s something very comforting about that. 

George Bilgere

Sunday, September 29, 2024

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the 74-year-old rocker stressed that he doesn’t plan to hang up his guitar any time soon. He wants to keep rocking until “the wheels come off.” “If I went tomorrow, it’s OK,” Springsteen told the crowd to loud applause. “What a fucking ride!”

Lobster, moose, and ... climate tech? Maine is branching out.

Warren Adams, the director of the newly launched ClimateTech incubator at the Roux Institute, stood at a wall mural in the office in Portland.Michael G. Seamans/for The Boston Globe

PORTLAND — A couple of decades ago, something weird started happening in Maine: Restaurants suddenly became good — like, award-winning, national-recognition good.

Attracted by a combination of low overhead costs, ample local seafood, and farm-fresh produce, big city chefs packed their knives and set up shop in Portland. And lo and behold, a foodie town was born.

Now, Maine is hoping to strike gold a second time, once again drawing on the promise of comparatively low costs and local resources — this time, in the climate tech sector.

This corner of the tech world, focusing on advancements to combat climate change, is well established in Silicon Valley, Boston, greater Denver, and New York. But Maine officials and experts say the state has something unique to offer, including its vast forests and history of forest industries, a large network of shuttered former mills, and a lengthy coastline in a part of the country considered ideal for offshore wind development.

This enthusiasm for Maine was on display on a recent weeknight in downtown Portland, as a hundred or so young-to-middle-aged entrepreneurs huddled around high-top tables and charcuterie spreads for the launch of the Roux Institute’s ClimateTech incubator. It’s an initiative of Northeastern University that will focus on breakthrough technologies to address the climate crisis. Among the companies cropping up here are SeaDeep, which uses advanced computer vision and machine learning to map, explore, and monitor underwater resources; Elipsa, which is using artificial intelligence to make industrial equipment more efficient and less carbon-intensive; and RoamR, a micromobility platform for management of electric fleets.




Cecile Tchoujan, a recent graduate of Northeastern University law school, worked as legal council for the 12 cohorts of the newly launched ClimateTech Incubator at the Roux Institute in Portland.Michael G. Seamans/for The Boston Globe

The “special sauce,” says Warren Adams, director of the new incubator, is providing a physical space for innovators, investors, and policy makers to toss ideas around and support each other’s businesses. Up until now, he said, local innovators have been working out of coffee shops and home offices, with little support. “We think the whole clean tech ecosystem is going to ignite, in a good way,” Adams said.

So far, the 12 startups at the incubator have garnered a total of $24 million in investments, from groups including the Grantham Foundation, Maine Technology Institute, the Massachusetts Clean Energy Center, and Lowercarbon Capital.



Joseph Curtatone, president of the Alliance for Climate Transition (formerly known as the Northeast Clean Energy Council), said the growth in Maine is something the entire region is watching. “Maine has been a leader on things like offshore wind, energy efficiency, and so forth,” he said, suggesting that the state was ready to take the next step forward.

As mayor of Somerville from 2004 to 2022, Curtatone helped lay the groundwork for the successful climate tech incubator Greentown Labs. For startups today, especially smaller ones, Maine’s “low cost of entry” and proximity to the well-established network and funding center of Boston are attractive, he said.

“You have this huge ecosystem in Boston that is doing really well,” said Monique Guimond, vice president of capital formation at Engine Ventures, a Boston-based tech investment firm. “There’s billions of dollars of private capital going into companies that are in a really critical moment of scaling.”


Adams, the director of the newly-launched incubator at the Roux, worked at his desk.Michael G. Seamans/for The Boston Globe

But when those companies are looking to scale, whether a demonstration project or a manufacturing plant, they’re not necessarily going to do that in a major downtown, she said.

“And so Maine has a lot going for it, in that it’s in that two-, three-, four-hour radius from Boston,” she said. “These companies need physical space.”

It won’t all be easy. Privately, some express something between skepticism and cautious optimism, noting that Maine’s climate tech ecosystem could be limited by its lack of access to venture capital funding, and the fact that it can take decades to create a leading research community.

But momentum in Maine is building.

In August, the startup Form Energy was awarded $147 million from the federal Department of Energy to build an 85-megawatt battery system that can hold enough energy from wind and solar to last days. It was constructed at the site of a former paper and pulp mill in Lincoln, Maine.



At another former mill, in Madison, Maine, TimberHP is producing building insulation from wood chips, which, according to the company’s website, are renewable, recyclable and “carbon negative” because they can store the greenhouse gas carbon dioxide.

The University of Maine, meanwhile, has developed the first 3D-printed house made entirely with bio-based materials, and is innovating floating offshore wind technologies.

And last year, the Biden administration designated Maine as a federal “tech hub” for forest bioproducts. That step is expected to accelerate research and development of wood bioproducts that can sequester carbon while replacing plastics, while opening the door for significant federal investment in the future.

This momentum is thanks, in part, to significant policy changes under Governor Janet Mills, a Democrat who succeeded Republican Paul LePage, who was openly antagonistic to energy reforms, said Brian Deese, former director of the National Economic Council and a mentor in residence at the Roux Institute’s incubator. “For both investors and for companies looking around the region to say, ‘Where are the most interesting places to locate?’ I think it’s gone from being a headwind to a tailwind,” Deese said.

The incubator, launched with support from the Maine Governor’s Energy Office, aims to initially bring in a dozen climate- and energy-focused startups, before growing to 50 by the end of 2027. Many of the startups will lean on artificial intelligence, a specialty of the Roux Institute, while creating products that run the gamut from reducing greenhouse gas emissions in aviation to developing a supercapacitor-enabled lithium-ion battery pack.




Data scientist, Conor Laver, worked at the Northeastern University Roux Institute in Portland.Michael G. Seamans/for The Boston Globe

Eric Fitz, who runs his startup Amply Energy out of his home in Cumberland, Maine, some 20 minutes north of Portland, is among those whose companies will call the Roux home. His AI-enabled software helps contractors create 3D models of buildings in real time, allowing them to more quickly design properly sized heat pump systems.

“Distributors are saying nine out of 10 issues with heat pumps are related to oversizing the equipment or mis-sizing the equipment,” Fitz said. This technology aims to fix that, and help speed up the rate at which building owners can ditch fossil fuel heating systems for electric heat pumps.

Born and raised in Maine, Fitz, 42, is among the droves of people who historically left the state after high school. He built up his career in California and Massachusetts before moving back to Maine in 2015. “I always knew I was going to come back,” he said.

Hannah Pingree, director of Maine’s Office of Policy Innovation and the Future, said that “boomerang” effect among returning native-born Mainers is something lawmakers had long hoped for because for years, Maine was known as a state that young people left for good.

COVID helped change that. In 2022, Maine’s population growth was more than twice the national rate.

“People came to our state during the pandemic, and people came home during the pandemic and realized what a wonderful place it is to live,” Pingree said. And, if all goes to plan, a wonderful place to work on cutting-edge climate technologies.




Sabrina Shankman can be reached at sabrina.shankman@globe.com. Follow her @shankman.

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“Traumatized people chronically feel unsafe inside their bodies: The past is alive in the form of gnawing interior discomfort. Their bodies are constantly bombarded by visceral warning signs, and, in an attempt to control these processes, they often become expert at ignoring their gut feelings and in numbing awareness of what is played out inside. They learn to hide from their selves.” (p.97)”
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“As long as you keep secrets and suppress information, you are fundamentally at war with yourself…The critical issue is allowing yourself to know what you know. That takes an enormous amount of courage.”
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“Being able to feel safe with other people is probably the single most important aspect of mental health; safe connections are fundamental to meaningful and satisfying lives.”
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“BEFRIENDING THE BODY

Trauma victims cannot recover until they become familiar with and befriend the sensations in their bodies. Being frightened means that you live in a body that is always on guard. Angry people live in angry bodies. The bodies of child-abuse victims are tense and defensive until they find a way to relax and feel safe. In order to change, people need to become aware of their sensations and the way that their bodies interact with the world around them. Physical self-awareness is the first step in releasing the tyranny of the past.

In my practice I begin the process by helping my patients to first notice and then describe the feelings in their bodies—not emotions such as anger or anxiety or fear but the physical sensations beneath the emotions: pressure, heat, muscular tension, tingling, caving in, feeling hollow, and so on. I also work on identifying the sensations associated with relaxation or pleasure. I help them become aware of their breath, their gestures and movements.

All too often, however, drugs such as Abilify, Zyprexa, and Seroquel, are prescribed instead of teaching people the skills to deal with such distressing physical reactions. Of course, medications only blunt sensations and do nothing to resolve them or transform them from toxic agents into allies.

The mind needs to be reeducated to feel physical sensations, and the body needs to be helped to tolerate and enjoy the comforts of touch. Individuals who lack emotional awareness are able, with practice, to connect their physical sensations to psychological events. Then they can slowly reconnect with themselves.”
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“As I often tell my students, the two most important phrases in therapy, as in yoga, are “Notice that” and “What happens next?” Once you start approaching your body with curiosity rather than with fear, everything shifts.”
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“The greatest sources of our suffering are the lies we tell ourselves.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“We have learned that trauma is not just an event that took place sometime in the past; it is also the imprint left by that experience on mind, brain, and body. This imprint has ongoing consequences for how the human organism manages to survive in the present. Trauma results in a fundamental reorganization of the way mind and brain manage perceptions. It changes not only how we think and what we think about, but also our very capacity to think.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“The brain-disease model overlooks four fundamental truths: (1) our capacity to destroy one another is matched by our capacity to heal one another. Restoring relationships and community is central to restoring well-being; (2) language gives us the power to change ourselves and others by communicating our experiences, helping us to define what we know, and finding a common sense of meaning; (3) we have the ability to regulate our own physiology, including some of the so-called involuntary functions of the body and brain, through such basic activities as breathing, moving, and touching; and (4) we can change social conditions to create environments in which children and adults can feel safe and where they can thrive.

When we ignore these quintessential dimensions of humanity, we deprive people of ways to heal from trauma and restore their autonomy. Being a patient, rather than a participant in one’s healing process, separates suffering people from their community and alienates them from an inner sense of self.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“Neuroscience research shows that the only way we can change the way we feel is by becoming aware of our inner experience and learning to befriend what is going inside ourselves.”
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“It takes enormous trust and courage to allow yourself to remember.”
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“Beneath the surface of the protective parts of trauma survivors there exists an undamaged essence, a Self that is confident, curious, and calm, a Self that has been sheltered from destruction by the various protectors that have emerged in their efforts to ensure survival. Once those protectors trust that it is safe to separate, the Self will spontaneously emerge, and the parts can be enlisted in the healing process”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“Being traumatized means continuing to organize your life as if the trauma were still going on—unchanged and immutable—as every new encounter or event is contaminated by the past.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“If your parents’ faces never lit up when they looked at you, it’s hard to know what it feels like to be loved and cherished. If you come from an incomprehensible world filled with secrecy and fear, it’s almost impossible to find the words to express what you have endured. If you grew up unwanted and ignored, it is a major challenge to develop a visceral sense of agency and self-worth.”
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“Psychologists usually try to help people use insight and understanding to manage their behavior. However, neuroscience research shows that very few psychological problems are the result of defects in understanding; most originate in pressures from deeper regions in the brain that drive our perception and attention. When the alarm bell of the emotional brain keeps signaling that you are in danger, no amount of insight will silence it.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“As the ACE study has shown, child abuse and neglect is the single most preventable cause of mental illness, the single most common cause of drug and alcohol abuse, and a significant contributor to leading causes of death such as diabetes, heart disease, cancer, stroke, and suicide.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“As long as we feel safely held in the hearts and minds of the people who love us, we will climb mountains and cross deserts and stay up all night to finish projects.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“Imagination is absolutely critical to the quality of our lives. Our imagination enables us to leave our routine everyday existence by fantasizing about travel, food, sex, falling in love, or having the last word—all the things that make life interesting. Imagination gives us the opportunity to envision new possibilities—it is an essential launchpad for making our hopes come true. It fires our creativity, relieves our boredom, alleviates our pain, enhances our pleasure, and enriches our most intimate relationships.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“In order to change, people need to become aware of their sensations and the way that their bodies interact with the world around them. Physical self-awareness is the first step in releasing the tyranny of the past.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“In our studies we keep seeing how difficult it is for traumatized people to feel completely relaxed and physically safe in their bodies. We measure our subjects’ HRV by placing tiny monitors on their arms during shavasana, the pose at the end of most classes during which practitioners lie face up, palms up, arms and legs relaxed. Instead of relaxation we picked up too much muscle activity to get a clear signal. Rather than going into a state of quiet repose, our students’ muscles often continue to prepare them to fight unseen enemies. A major challenge in recovering from trauma remains being able to achieve a state of total relaxation and safe surrender.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“The contrast with the scans of the eighteen chronic PTSD patients with severe early-life trauma was startling. There was almost no activation of any of the self-sensing areas of the brain: The MPFC, the anterior cingulate, the parietal cortex, and the insula did not light up at all; the only area that showed a slight activation was the posterior cingulate, which is responsible for basic orientation in space. There could be only one explanation for such results: In response to the trauma itself, and in coping with the dread that persisted long afterward, these patients had learned to shut down the brain areas that transmit the visceral feelings and emotions that accompany and define terror. Yet in everyday life, those same brain areas are responsible for registering the entire range of emotions and sensations that form the foundation of our self-awareness, our sense of who we are. What we witnessed here was a tragic adaptation: In an effort to shut off terrifying sensations, they also deadened their capacity to feel fully alive.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“The essence of trauma is that it is overwhelming, unbelievable, and unbearable. Each patient demands that we suspend our sense of what is normal and accept that we are dealing with a dual reality: the reality of a relatively secure and predictable present that lives side by side with a ruinous, ever-present past.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“One thing is certain: Yelling at someone who is already out of control can only lead to further dysregulation. Just as your dog cowers if you shout and wags his tail when you speak in a high singsong, we humans respond to harsh voices with fear, anger, or shutdown and to playful tones by opening up and relaxing. We simply cannot help but respond to these indicators of safety or danger.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“Long after a traumatic experience is over, it may be reactivated at the slightest hint of danger and mobilize disturbed brain circuits and secrete massive amounts of stress hormones. This precipitates unpleasant emotions intense physical sensations, and impulsive and aggressive actions. These posttraumatic reactions feel incomprehensible and overwhelming. Feeling out of control, survivors of trauma often begin to fear that they are damaged to the core and beyond redemption.  •”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“One day he told me that he’d spent his adulthood trying to let go of his past, and he remarked how ironic it was that he had to get closer to it in order to let it go.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“After trauma the world is experienced with a different nervous system. The survivor’s energy now becomes focused on suppressing inner chaos, at the expense of spontaneous involvement in their lives. These attempts to maintain control over unbearable physiological reactions can result in a whole range of physical symptoms, including fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, and other autoimmune diseases. This explains why it is critical for trauma treatment to engage the entire organism, body, mind, and brain.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“Mindfulness not only makes it possible to survey our internal landscape with compassion and curiosity but can also actively steer us in the right direction for self-care.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“For a hundred years or more, every textbook of psychology and psychotherapy has advised that some method of talking about distressing feelings can resolve them. However, as we’ve seen, the experience of trauma itself gets in the way of being able to do that. No matter how much insight and understanding we develop, the rational brain is basically impotent to talk the emotional brain out of its own reality. I am continually impressed by how difficult it is for people who have gone through the unspeakable to convey the essence of their experience. It is so much easier for them to talk about what has been done to them—to tell a story of victimization and revenge—than to notice, feel, and put into words the reality of their internal experience. Our scans had revealed how their dread persisted and could be triggered by multiple aspects of daily experience. They had not integrated their experience into the ongoing stream of their life. They continued to be “there” and did not know how to be “here”—fully alive in the present.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“Sadly, our educational system, as well as many of the methods that profess to treat trauma, tend to bypass this emotional-engagement system and focus instead on recruiting the cognitive capacities of the mind. Despite the well-documented effects of anger, fear, and anxiety on the ability to reason, many programs continue to ignore the need to engage the safety system of the brain before trying to promote new ways of thinking. The last things that should be cut from school schedules are chorus, physical education, recess, and anything else involving movement, play, and joyful engagement.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“How many mental health problems, from drug addiction to self-injurious behavior, start as attempts to cope with the unbearable physical pain of our emotions? If Darwin was right, the solution requires finding ways to help people alter the inner sensory landscape of their bodies. Until recently, this bidirectional communication between body and mind was largely ignored by Western science, even as it had long been central to traditional healing practices in many other parts of the world, notably in India and China. Today it is transforming our understanding of trauma and recovery.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

“Because traumatized people often have trouble sensing what is going on in their bodies, they lack a nuanced response to frustration. They either react to stress by becoming “spaced out” or with excessive anger. Whatever their response, they often can’t tell what is upsetting them. This failure to be in touch with their bodies contributes to their well-documented lack of self-protection and high rates of revictimization23 and also to their remarkable difficulties feeling pleasure, sensuality, and having a sense of meaning. People with alexithymia can get better only by learning to recognize the relationship between their physical sensations and their emotions, much as colorblind people can only enter the world of color by learning to distinguish and appreciate shades of gray.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma