It’s not that I decide what to write and carry it out. It’s more that I grope my way towards something—not even knowing what it is until I’ve arrived.
Kathryn Harrison
My glittery trail
She will accept, acknowledge, see me only in as much as I will make myself the child who pleases her.
When I’m writing the way I want, the way I love, which is without thinking about what I’m writing, a strange thing happens: I feel simultaneously the most myself I could possibly be, and at the same time totally relieved of self. I become, I guess, a version of myself that isn’t filtered through the detritus and clutter of experience. We can’t control so much of what happen to us in life. Even our own actions unfold in time in ways we can’t possibly imagine. But there is someone inside who remains untouched by all of that. That person may not really exist in the light, but she is there, waiting, in the dark.
To let go does not mean to get rid of. To let go means to let be. When we let be with compassion, things come and go on their own. Jack Kornfield
Let go of the battle. Breathe quietly and let it be. Let your body relax and your heart soften. Open to whatever you experience without fighting. Jack Kornfield
“Conversation between a princess and an outlaw:
"If I stand for fairy-tale balls and dragon bait--dragon bait--what do you stand for?"
"Me? I stand for uncertainty, insecurity, bad taste, fun, and things that go boom in the night."
"Franky, it seems to me that you've turned yourself into a stereotype."
"You
may be right. I don't care. As any car freak will tell you, the old
models are the most beautiful, even if they aren't the most efficient.
People who sacrifice beauty for efficiency get what they deserve."
"Well,
you may get off on being a beautiful stereotype, regardless of the
social consequences, but my conscience won't allow it."
"And I goddamn refuse to be dragon bait. I'm as capable of rescuing you as you are of rescuing me."
"I'm
an outlaw, not a hero. I never intended to rescue you. We're our own
dragons as well as our own heroes, and we have to rescue ourselves from
ourselves.”
―
Tom Robbins,
Still Life with Woodpecker
You risked your life, but what else have you ever risked? Have you risked disapproval? Have you ever risked economic security? Have you ever risked a belief? I see nothing particularly courageous about risking one's life. So you lose it, you go to your hero's heaven and everything is milk and honey 'til the end of time. Right? You get your reward and suffer no earthly consequences. That's not courage. Real courage is risking something that might force you to rethink your thoughts and suffer change and stretch consciousness. Real courage is risking one's clichés.
You've heard of people calling in sick. You may have called in sick a
few times yourself. But have you ever thought about calling in well?
It'd
go like this: You'd get the boss on the line and say, "Listen, I've
been sick ever since I started working here, but today I'm well and I
won't be in anymore." Call in well.
―
Tom Robbins
“All depression has its roots in self-pity, and all self-pity is rooted in people taking themselves too seriously.”