Find solace in the windy day

A woman I know said to me once that LENT is her receive-mode. She is a practicing born again enthusiastic Catholic. Which I respect. I think it saved her.

I am definitely feeling hints of receive mode...I am trying not to panic. Some aspects are good. I slow down and stop cooking and eating so much. Every time I go into receive-mode I wince because my family and some women I used to be friends with would attack me for losing that exuberant energy. They were like vampires angry at me for not generating the buzz. I still have energy but it is very different. I almost go MUTE.

Adrenaline-filled I didn't sleep a wink last night. Just before bed time because a neighbor went off on me accusing me of all that is wrong in her life for complaining to her landlord and the city. Such is life. And the landlord sent me a snarky email to boot. Not a good feeling but I can rest assured that the city understands how invested I am in keeping things good back here. After 25 years of neighborhood trials there are certain things we can't NOT SEE. Luckily the professional landlord appreciates my eyes ears.

I have to walk and swim myself back to center. I do not like people raging at me. Who does?
Find solace in the windy day.

3/4/2020