View from Above

When transmit hits so much positive energy floods my brain. I feel like I am in a helicopter surveying my life from a new perspective while revisiting all my old haunts from this new and uplifting vantage point. I scurry to take notes and talk. Everything is coming in fast. The physical energy is huge and my swim/sleep/eat/write/walk routine grounds me just as it does during dark times.

I am Cinderella and I know the stepmother and step sisters are jealous. I also know I will turn back into a gray mouse in short order. Enjoy it, this energy, it's for you, my husband says. 

As a child I was sucked dry by the evil witch, forced to give it all away. When I became an adolescent I was shamed and abused in the name of the witch's medicine and off-the-cuff psychoanalysis. The witch never could see her children, only herself. The witch was Queen of the Narcissists. Mirror mirror on the wall who's the fairest of them all, it better be me, she said.

I like the Wizard of Oz template and I think of the Scarecrow, Tin-Man, and Cowardly Lion coming to Dorothy's aid (my aid). Running away, Providence Rhode Island became my Emerald City and now it's the smaller city of Woonsocket RI. Both cities and communities have taken good care of me and taught me what REAL LOVE is. Now I know what it means to have found a home with community and love.