Saturday, July 02, 2022

this is not a ride I will be taking.

Bad prose is everywhere, and no impediment to popularity. Most readers don’t mind. I wish I didn’t mind, but I do. No matter how compelling the plot, I struggle to get through schlocky writing. Same goes for podcast narration. If you introduce a character by saying, “Mallorie was a successful chiropractor who finished top of her class at Michigan. Brilliant and beautiful, she had it all — except for the perfect guy,” I’m just out, I don’t care what great twists you have in store, this is not a ride I will be taking.

PATRICK RADDEN KEEFE

A Misanthrope Lives Here

I guess I was spoiled working alone for decades. I can no longer stand having the predictable schedule. Interactions with the same people at the same time of day drives me nuts. I can't stand annual events let alone daily ones. Perhaps this is the true sign of misanthropy. I'm embracing it.

imagining I was a forties movie queen

 What I’ve Lost

A taste for Southern Comfort. Umbrellas:
two in a week when I was down
to eight bucks in the bank halfway
to payday and rain in the forecast, tail
end of a hurricane that blew
through Cuba, kissed the coast
of Florida and ricocheted into Philly
where its gray buttocks of sky squatted
over us for days. I tied a garbage bag
turban style, swanned past
the row of four-star restaurants
on Walnut Street, imagining I
was a forties movie queen shooting
a scene on a wet set. Next payday, I dropped
seventy bucks on a steak and a bottle
of rosé, something French
and unpronounceable, curly
on the tongue. The sun
was out. I forgot
about rain and sweet
whiskey thick
in my throat.

“What I’ve Lost” by Sarah Freligh from Sad Math. © Moon City Press, 2015.

I know this will end in ashes

The Beginning of Something Is Always the End of Another

Take the day, for instance: How the ruff
of sun’s first light shoulders the night

aside and when I butt my morning
cigarette, my absolute last cigarette,

I begin to chew my cuticles and why
my next-door neighbor drops by

daily to cry about her ex who ran off
with some little slut he met in tango class,

and when my twenty-year-old cat
misses the litter box, howls at

headlights that strafe the ceiling,
I know this will end in ashes

at a cemetery where we stood
over my mother’s urn, hugless, useless

hands dangling from our dumb arms
while on the hill above us a guy wearing

soiled khakis lounged in a golf cart,
waiting for us to understand this was it,

the end, we needed to leave already
so he could finally begin to dig.

“The Beginning of Something Is Always the End of Another” by Sarah Freligh from Sad Math. © Moon City Press, 2015

image of the moon on the surface of a cup of water

“The longness and shortness of the present moment can be recognized by utilizing a big image of the moon, which is reflecting on the surface of the ocean, and a small image of the moon on the surface of a cup of water, or in another example the very wide scale of the whole sky itself, and the very narrow space of the moon, which is shining in the sky.”

― Dogen Zenji

“Long ago a monk asked an old master, “When hundreds, thousands, or myriads of objects come all at once, what should be done?”
The master replied, “Don’t try to control them”
What he means is that in whatever way objects come, do not try to change them. Whatever comes is the Buddha-dharma, not objects at all. Do not understand the master’s reply as merely a brilliant admonition, but realize that it is the truth. Even if you try to control what comes, it cannot be controlled.”
― Dōgen, Moon in a Dewdrop: Writings of Zen Master Dogen

“You should study not only that you become a mother when your child is born, but also that you become a child.”
― Dōgen

“Dogen’s teaching: We practice because we do not yet know who or what we are. But as a result of many causes, including the suffering we experience and the longing engendered by that suffering, we aspire to know. That aspiration leads many people to begin the practice of zazen. Dogen expressed this beautifully when he said, “Wisdom is seeking wisdom.” Perhaps we might paraphrase and say that wholeness is seeking wholeness, self is seeking self.”
― Dōgen, The Essential Dogen: Writings of the Great Zen Master

“Those who are extremely stupid think that women are merely the objects of sexual desire and treat women in this way. The Buddha’s children should not be like this. If we discriminate against women because we see them merely as objects of sexual desire, do we also discriminate against all men for the same reason?”
― Dōgen, The Essential Dogen: Writings of the Great Zen Master

“Because mountains are high and broad, the way of riding the clouds is always reached in the mountains; the inconceivable power of soaring in the wind comes freely from the mountains”
― Dōgen

“No matter how compelling or beautiful they may be, words appeal in the main to the linear, thinking mind that thinks in words.”
― Dōgen, The Essential Dogen: Writings of the Great Zen Master

“There is a simple way to become a Buddha: When you refrain from unwholesome actions, are not attached to birth and death, and are compassionate toward all sentient beings, respectful to seniors and kind to juniors, not excluding or desiring anything, with no thoughts or worries, you will be called a Buddha. Seek nothing else.”
― Dōgen, The Essential Dogen: Writings of the Great Zen Master

“Each moment of zazen is equally wholeness of practice, equally wholeness of realization. This is not only practice while sitting, it is like a hammer striking emptiness: before and after, its exquisite peal permeates everywhere. How can it be limited to this moment?”
― Dogen

“Beings, things, and events do not exist in time: being, things, and events are times.”
― Dōgen

“Like the sun illuminating and refreshing the world, this sitting removes obscurities from the mind and lightens the body so that exhaustion is set aside.”
― Dōgen, The Essential Dogen: Writings of the Great Zen Master

“When you let go, the dharma fills your hands;”
― Dōgen, The Wholehearted Way: A Translation of Eihei Dogen's Bendowa, With Commentary by 
 
“The time of our delusion does not obstruct the time of our realization. Our practice is not in order to attain realization. Practice itself is the actualization of realization.”
― Dogen

“At the moment of giving birth to a child, is the mother separate from the child? You should study not only that you become a mother when your child is born, but also that you become a child.”
― Dogen Zenji

“Handle even a single leaf of a green in such a way that it manifests the body of the Buddha. This in turn allows the Buddha to manifests through the leaf. This is a power which you cannot grasp with your rational mind. It operates freely, according to the situation, in a most natural way.”
― Dōgen, How to Cook Your Life: From the Zen Kitchen to Enlightenment

“Delusions mean our individuality, our limitations as individuals, and also egocentricity. We cannot see the universe from the viewpoints of other people; we can see things only from "my" point of view. I cannot see from your point of view. Even though I think I can understand it, I really cannot see it, because it is not reality for me.”
― Dōgen, The Wholehearted Way: A Translation of Eihei Dogen's Bendowa, With Commentary by Kosho Uchiyama Roshi

“The ancients thought it shameful to seek advancement or want to be the head of something, or the chief or senior.”
― Dōgen

“No one should torment people or break their hearts.”
― Dōgen

“When we discover that the truth is already in us, we are all at once our original selves.”
― Dōgen Zenji

“Clarifying the Way" means that we determine the point we should aim at throughout our lives, based on the self that is only the self and life that is only life. This is the sole great matter, and this is what "completing the sole great matter of one's life" means. True practice begins at this point.”
― Dōgen, The Wholehearted Way: A Translation of Eihei Dogen's Bendowa, With Commentary by Kosho Uchiyama Roshi

“thing, or who changes his speech or manner according to the appearance or position of the people he meets, is not a man working in the Way.”
― Dōgen, How to Cook Your Life: From the Zen Kitchen to Enlightenment

do not ask me where I am going, As I travel in this limitless world, Where every step I take is my home

“If you are unable to find the truth right where you are, where else do you expect to find it?”
― Dogen

“Do not be concerned with the faults of other persons. Do not see others' faults with a hateful mind. There is an old saying that if you stop seeing others' faults, then naturally seniors and venerated and juniors are revered. Do not imitate others' faults; just cultivate virtue. Buddha prohibited unwholesome actions, but did not tell us to hate those who practice unwholesome actions.”
― Zen Master Dogen

“To study the Buddha Way is to study the self. To study the self is to forget the self. To forget the self is to be actualized by myriad things. When actualized by myriad things, your body and mind as well as the bodies and minds of others drop away. No trace of enlightenment remains, and this no-trace continues endlessly.”
― Dogen

“A fool sees himself as another, but a wise man sees others as himself.”
― Dōgen, How to Cook Your Life: From the Zen Kitchen to Enlightenment

“Forgetting oneself is opening oneself”
― Dogen

“Prefer to be defeated in the presence of the wise than to excel among fools.”
― Dogen Zenji

“Life and death are of supreme importance. Time swiftly passes by and opportunity is lost. Each of us should strive to awaken. Awaken! Take heed, do not squander your life.”
― Dōgen

“No matter how bad a state of mind you may get into, if you keep strong and hold out, eventually the floating clouds must vanish and the withering wind must cease.”
― Dogen Zenji

“If you want to travel the Way of Buddhas and Zen masters, then expect nothing, seek nothing, and grasp nothing.”
― Dogen Zenji

“When you paint Spring, do not paint willows, plums, peaches, or apricots, but just paint Spring. To paint willows, plums, peaches, or apricots is to paint willows, plums, peaches, or apricots - it is not yet painting Spring.”
― Eihei Dogen

“There is a simple way to become Buddha: When you refrain from unwholesome actions, are not attached to birth and death, and are compassionate toward all sentient beings, respectful to seniors and kind to juniors, not excluding or desiring anything, with no designing thoughts or worries, you will be called a Buddha. Do not seek anything else.”
― Dōgen, Moon in a Dewdrop: Writings of Zen Master Dogen

“To escape from the world means that one's mind is not concerned with the opinions of the world.”
― Dōgen, A Primer Of Soto Zen

“When you ride in a boat and watch the shore, you might assume that the shore is moving. But when you keep your eyes closely on the boat, you can see that the boat moves. Similarly, if you examine many things with a confused mind, you might suppose that your mind and nature are permanent. But when you practice intimately and return to where you are, it will be clear that there is nothing that has unchanging self.”
― Dogen

“Your body is like a dew-drop on the morning grass, your life is as brief as a flash of lightning. Momentary and vain, it is lost in a moment. (From 'Fukan zazengi')”
― Dōgen Zenji

“It's too late to be ready.”
― Dogen Zenji

“do not view mountains from the scale of human thought”
― Dogen

“Nothing can be gained by extensive study and wide reading. Give them up immediately.”
― Dōgen, A Primer Of Soto Zen

“One must be deeply aware of the impermanence of the world.”
― Dōgen, A Primer Of Soto Zen

“If you study a lot because you are worried that others will think badly of you for being ignorant and you'll feel stupid, this is a serious mistake.”
― Dogen Zenji

“Treading along in this dreamlike, illusory realm,
Without looking for the traces I may have left;
A cuckoo's song beckons me to return home;
Hearing this, I tilt my head to see
Who has told me to turn back;

But do not ask me where I am going,
As I travel in this limitless world,
Where every step I take is my home.”
― Eihei Dogen

“In a snowfall that covers the winter grass a white heron uses his own whiteness to disappear.”
― Dogen

“To enter the Buddha Way is to stop discriminating between good and evil and to cast aside the mind that says this is good and that is bad.”
― Dōgen, A Primer Of Soto Zen

“What you think in your own mind to be good, or what people of the world think is good, is not necessarily good.”
― Dogen Zenji

“Before one studies Zen, mountains are mountains and waters are waters; after a first glimpse into the truth of Zen, mountains are no longer mountains and waters are no longer waters; after enlightenment, mountains are once again mountains and waters once again waters.”
― Dōgen

“The zazen I speak of is not learning meditation. It is simply the Dharma gate of repose and bliss, the practice-realization of totally culminated enlightenment. It is the manifestation of ultimate reality. Traps and snares can never reach it. Once its heart is grasped, you are like the dragon when he gains the water, like the tiger when she enters the mountain. For you must know that just there (in zazen) the right Dharma is manifesting itself and that, from the first, dullness and distraction are struck aside.”
― Dogen

“Each moment is all being, each moment is the entire world. Reflect now whether any being or any world is left out of the present moment.”
― Dōgen

“Every man possesses the Buddha-nature. Do not demean yourselves.”
― Dōgen, A Primer Of Soto Zen

“Only those who have the great capacity of genuine trust can enter this realm [the realm of the Buddhas]. Those who have no trust are unable to accept it, however much they hear it.”
― Dōgen, Beyond Thinking: A Guide to Zen Meditation

“Know that the true dharma emerges of itself [during the practice of zazen], clearing away hindrances and distractions.”
― Dōgen

“Although we say mountains belong to the country, actually, they belong to those that love them.”
― Eihei Dogen

Friday, July 01, 2022

Darren Hayes

I got a text from my mother the other day about the song. She told me how proud she was of me for speaking so candidly about depression, but she also tried to apologize for having passed down the condition.

I stopped her in her tracks. I told her I see it as a superpower. My depression comes with some downsides, of course, but it also allows me to see and feel emotions that are invisible to many people. There’s a spectrum of color and feeling that is off the charts for many, but available to me and my art. All of that came from the warrior, the survivor, who is my mother.

I told her, “I wouldn’t want any other blood rushing through my heart than yours.”

The artist, and particularly the poet, is always an anarchist in the best sense of the word. He must heed only the call that arises within him from three strong voices: the voice of death, with all its foreboding, the voice of love and the voice of art.

 ― Federico García-Lorca

“I know there is no straight road
No straight road in this world
Only a giant labyrinth
Of intersecting crossroads”
― Federico García Lorca

find the burn that keeps everything awake

Federico García Lorca

“I've often lost myself,
in order to find the burn that keeps everything awake”
― Federico García-Lorca

Federico García Lorca

My oldest childhood memories have the flavor of the earth. The meadows, the fields, have done wonders for me. The wild animals…the livestock, the people living on the land, all these are suggestive in a way that very few people understand.… Shepherds, fields, sky, solitude.… This is poetic memory, and I trust it implicitly.

 Federico García Lorca

you can beef things up

Writing has to do with truth-telling. When you're writing, let's say, an essay for a magazine, you try to tell the truth at every moment. You do your best to quote people accurately and get everything right. Writing a novel is a break from that: freedom. When you're writing a novel, you are in charge; you can beef things up.

NICHOLSON BAKER

a misanthrope so pure she can't understand why solitary confinement is considered punishment.

The word misanthrope is human to the core—literally. One of its parents is the Greek noun anthrōpos, meaning "human being." Its other parent is the Greek verb misein, meaning "to hate." Misein also gave English misogamy ("a hatred of marriage"), misogyny ("hatred of women"), misology ("a hatred of argument, reasoning, or enlightenment"), and misoneism ("a hatred, fear, or intolerance of innovation or change"). Anthrōpos also joined forces with phil- (a combining form meaning "loving") to form the Greek ancestor of philanthropy ("active effort to help other people"). We also find anthrōpos when we delve into the foundations of the word anthropology.

Misanthrope comes from the Greek misanthrōpos “hating humankind” and was very likely popularized by the French playwright Moliere's Le Misanthrope, which depicts a bitter critic of society who chooses exile over contact with other people. In English, misanthrope (or its anglicized equivalent, misanthropist) has been applied to many a perceived antisocial crank, from satirist Jonathan Swift to philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche to Charles Dicken’s character Ebenezer Scrooge. It is one of several English words beginning with mis- (from Greek misein "to hate") naming persons who despise something or someone. The most familiar example nowadays is misogynist, used of a person who hates women. Two lesser-known variations on the theme are misandrist “one who hates men” and misopedist “a person who hates children.” https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/misanthrope

 Rather she is the genuine article, a misanthrope so pure she can't understand "why solitary confinement is considered punishment." — Lewis Burke Frumkes, New York Times Book Review, 10 May 1992

When you’re not concerned with succeeding, you can work with complete freedom. Larry David

Louis L'Amour: Books are the perfect Time Machine

Louis Dearborn L’Amour was an American novelist and short-story writer. His books consisted primarily of Western novels (though he called his work “frontier stories”); however, he also wrote historical fiction (The Walking Drum), science fiction (Haunted Mesa), non-fiction (Frontier), as well as poetry and short-story collections. These Louis L’Amour quotes will motivate you.

Louis L’Amour Quotes
  1. “Up to a point a person’s life is shaped by environment, heredity, and changes in the world about them. Then there comes a time when it lies within their grasp to shape the clay of their life into the sort of thing they wish it to be. Only the weak blame parents, their race, their times, lack of good fortune or the quirks of fate. Everyone has the power to say, “This I am today. That I shall be tomorrow.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  2. “When I die, remember that what you knew of me is with you always. What is buried is only the shell of what was. Do not regret the shell, but remember the man. Remember the father.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  3. “There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  4. “Do not let yourself be bothered by the inconsequential. One has only so much time in this world, so devote it to the work and the people most important to you, to those you love and things that matter. One can waste half a lifetime with people one doesn’t really like, or doing things when one would be better off somewhere else.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  5. “The trail is the thing, not the end of the trail. Travel too fast, and you miss all you are traveling for.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  6. “Actually, all education is self-education. A teacher is only a guide, to point out the way, and no school, no matter how excellent, can give you education. What you receive is like the outlines in a child’s coloring book. You must fill in the colors yourself.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  7. “We do not at present educate people to think but, rather, to have opinions, and that is something altogether different.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  8. “There are good men everywhere. I only wish they had louder voices.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  9. “Books are the building blocks of civilization, for without the written word, a man knows nothing beyond what occurs during his own brief years and, perhaps, in a few tales his parents tell him.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  10. “Victory is won not in miles but in inches. Win a little now, hold your ground, and later, win a little more.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  11. “If you’re going to be a writer, the first essential is just to write. Do not wait for an idea. Start writing something and the ideas will come. You have to turn the faucet on before the water starts to flow.” ~ Louis L’Amour , Louis L’Amour quotes on writing
  12. “Power not only corrupts he who wields the power but those who submit to it. Those who grovel at the feet of power betray their fellows to hide themselves behind the cloak of submission. It is an evil thing.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  13. “You are your own best teacher. My advice is to question all things. Seek for answers, and when you find what seems to be an answer, question that, too.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  14. “There have always been hard times. There have always been wars and troubles -famine, disease and such-like -and some folks are born with money, some with none. In the end it is up to the man what he becomes, and none of those other things matters. It is character that counts.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  15. “Long ago I learned nothing gets done by just wishing it. You have to do it.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  16. “The one law that does not change is that everything changes, and the hardship I was bearing today was only a breath away from the pleasures I would have tomorrow, and those pleasures would be all the richer because of the memories of this I was enduring.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  17. “There is nothing more dangerous than a woman with a shotgun. Because you don’t know when it’s going to go off…and neither does she.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  18. “I am somebody. I am me. And I don’t need anybody to make me somebody.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  19. “The thieves and killers are goin’ to have guns, so if the honest men don’t have ’em they just make it easier for the vicious.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  20. “violence is an evil thing, but when the guns are all in the hands of the men without respect for human rights, then men are really in trouble.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  21. “We are, finally, all wanderers in search of knowledge. Most of us hold the dream of becoming something better than we are, something larger, richer, in some way more important to the world and ourselves. Too often, the way taken is the wrong way, with too much emphasis on what we want to have, rather than what we wish to become.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  22. “If you wait for inspiration, you’re not a writer, but a waiter.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  23. “Few of us ever live in the present. We are forever anticipating what is to come or remembering what has gone.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  24. “Only one who has learned much can fully appreciate his ignorance.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  25. “A book is less important for what it says than for what it makes you think.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  26. “Everyone has it within his power to say, this I am today, that I shall be tomorrow.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  27. “Knowledge is like money: to be of value it must circulate, and in circulating it can increase in quantity and, hopefully, in value.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  28. “A ship does not sail with yesterday’s wind.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  29. “He never knew when he was whipped … So he never was.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  30. “Love is a moment of stillness that sometimes a word can shatter to pieces. Or love can be a thing that endures, a rich, deep current flowing unending through the years.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  31. “When a man is one of a kind, he will be lonely wherever he is.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  32. “Strange how it was always the spoiled who weakened and cried first, and it was the injured, the maimed, the blind, and the poor who fought on alone.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  33. “Too often I would hear men boast of the miles covered that day, rarely of what they had seen.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  34. “A true gentleman is at a disadvantage in dealing with women. Women are realists, and their tactics are realistic, so no man should be a gentleman where women are concerned unless the women are very, very old or very, very young. Women admire gentlemen, and sleep with cads.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  35. “The best of all things is to learn. Money can be lost or stolen, health and strength may fail, but what you have committed to your mind is yours forever.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  36. “No matter how much I admire our schools, I know that no university exists that can provide an education; what a university can provide is an outline, to give the learner a direction and guidance. The rest one has to do for oneself.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  37. “The saddle is a place for dreaming when there’s hours of trail ahead.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  38. “There is no man more dangerous than one who does not doubt his own rightness.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  39. “… we must read, not only for what we read but for what it makes us think.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  40. “Our libraries are not cloisters for an elite. They are for the people, and if they are not used, the fault belongs to those who do not take advantage of their wealth.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  41. “One never realizes how much and how little he knows until he starts talking.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  42. “This-this was what made life: a moment of quiet, the water falling in the fountain, the girl’s voice. . . a moment of captured beauty. Those who are truly wise will never permit such moments to escape.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  43. “My future is one I must make myself.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  44. “Adventure is just a romantic name for trouble. It sounds swell when you write about it, but it’s hell when you meet it face to face in a dark and lonely place.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  45. “A mistake constantly made by those who should know better is to judge people of the past by our standards rather than their own. The only way men or women can be judged is against the canvas of their own time.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  46. “You stick your finger in the water and you pull it out, and that is how much of a hole you leave when you’re gone.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  47. “One who returns to a place sees it with new eyes. Although the place may not have changed, the viewer inevitably has. For the first time things invisible before become suddenly visible.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  48. “When corruption is visited upon the cities of men, the mountains and the deserts await him. The cities are for money but the high-up hills are purely for the soul.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  49. “There is no miraculous change that takes place in a boy that makes him a man. He becomes a man by being a man.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  50. “Some say opportunity knocks only once, that is not true. Opportunity knocks all the time, but you have to be ready for it. If the chance comes, you must have the equipment to take advantage of it.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  51. “The way I see it, every time a man gets up in the morning he starts his life over. Sure, the bills are there to pay, and the job is there to do, but you don’t have to stay in a pattern. You can always start over, saddle a fresh horse and take another trail.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  52. “The fact of the matter is that poor men do not often steal, and when they do, it is petty theft, something to eat or perhaps an item of clothing to keep them from the cold. Thieves are usually those who have something and want more.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  53. “A man who says he has never been scared is either lying or else he’s never been any place or done anything.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  54. “Any man can shoot a gun, and with practice he can draw fast and shoot accurately, but that makes no difference. What counts is how you stand up when somebody is shooting back at you.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  55. “I have read my books by many lights, hoarding their beauty, their wit or wisdom against the dark days when I would have no book, nor a place to read. I have known hunger of the belly kind many times over, but I have known a worse hunger: the need to know and to learn.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  56. “A mind, like a home, is furnished by its owner, so if one’s life is cold and bare he can blame none but himself. You have a chance to select from pretty elegant furnishings.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  57. “Historical novels are, without question, the best way of teaching history, for they offer the human stories behind the events and leave the reader with a desire to know more.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  58. “To die is nothing. One is here, one is no longer here. It is only at the end one must be able to say ‘I was a man’.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  59. “. . . What do you wish to be? What would you like to become?” I did not know, and I told her so, but the question worried me. Should I know? “There is time,” she said, “but the sooner you know, the sooner you can plan. To have a goal is the important thing, and to work toward it. Then, if you decide you wish to do something different, you will at least have been moving, you will have been going somewhere, you will have been learning.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  60. “For one who reads, there is no limit to the number of lives that may be lived, for fiction, biography, and history offer an inexhaustible number of lives in many parts of the world, in all periods of time.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  61. “Living a life is much like climbing mountains-the summits are always further off than you think, but when a man has a goal, he always feels he’s working toward something.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  62. “I fear there will be no future for those who do not change.” ~ Louis L’Amour

  63. “To make democracy work, we must be a nation of participants, not simply observers. One who does not vote has no right to complain.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  64. “The only way men or women can be judged is against the canvas of their own time.” ~ Louis L’Amour
  65. “Books are the perfect Time Machine. By the simple act of opening a book, you can, in an instant, be traveling up a jungle river without once being bitten by mosquitoes, or you can almost die of thirst in the desert while holding a cold drink in your hand, or dine in the finest restaurants and never have to worry about paying the bill, or ride the wild country of our western frontier and never worry about losing your scalp to a raiding party.” ~ Louis L’Amour

Radiation Hocus Pocus

They said it was hi tech— and that's no lie.  The first radiation beam happened yesterday. 

The machine is a large, gleaming, 8  by 10 foot disc-shaped structure set back from  

the narrow table where the patient lies down, head first. On the table, directly above my head was a round metal and glass case with visible machinery inside. This glass case is about 20 inches across.  

  

But that's not all.  

After some low whirling sound, a flat square panel rises from the left and  

sweeps across the body all the way to the right - like a panoramic camera.  

This It then rotates under the table and returns to rest position.  

 

That's not all.  

A third panel emerges from the right side and sweeps over the body all the  

way to the left. This series happens 2 or 3 times, Then the original  

round metal and glass case hovers and delivers the beam of radiation. It took about  

20-30 minutes. 


I was told by the technician that this is a brand-new machine that takes, 
 

X-ray, CT and delivers the stereotactic radiation.  

 
— Larry Scahill   

Your Guide to Your Pet's Joint Health Why and How to Prioritize Their Mobility at Every Age

Elyse Olechnowicz, Area Medical Director (Northeast) - Vetco Total Care Greater Boston

https://www.petco.com/content/petco/PetcoStore/en_US/pet-services/resource-center/health-wellness/pet-mobility-tips.html 

How to Cool Your House

 without AC

Common Anxiety Disorders

So many friends of mine have crippling anxiety along with the problems that come with self medicating. Unfortunately the self-medicating exacerbates the problem.

1. https://www.psychiatry.org/patients-families/anxiety-disorders/what-are-anxiety-disorders

2. Article

staring at the computer screen with nothing to type

Take your time but don’t dawdle. You have to get comfortable with experimenting and getting it wrong and also staring at the computer screen with nothing to type. All this discomfort and doubt and frustration in the beginning is just what you have to go through to get to the place where something begins to take shape. Sometimes this period can last a long time. Sometimes not. Either way, it’s just as necessary as the days where you feel like you’re transcribing something that already exists and your fingers can’t move fast enough to put down the words that flow so easily (these days are fun and worth waiting for).

Bill Clegg

Visiting the Bullfrogs

Last night we watched the huge and tiny bullfrogs hanging out on lily pads strumming bass lines. We spotted the beaver swimming to his house and a cotton tailed bunny hopping across a field. The black walnut tree is full.  Elyse's chickens seem happy. These walks are our vacation moments.