The Demons

Going into receive-mode is agony and always renders me mute at least for a few weeks. I am grateful for my husband's compassion. It still is hard for me to feel the compassion towards my mood-cycle when I'm in emotional pain. At these times I feel as if I have done something wrong but these forces are chemical and biological and they are outside of my control. I have to dance with my demons and in this case swim with them. I have helped the transition immensely by diving into the pool next door and swimming laps. The exertion stabilizes my mood, cures sinus allergy pain, and I go home clean. It's a winning situation. Most demons are water soluble.