Monday, April 30, 2018


(This is what I call a roll over dream, they happen just before walking up.)

I was with Jan who looks like Betty Boop. We were reporters watching a young woman conduct a drug deal in a cafe. She was counting a wad of cash. "Here's your moment, go talk to her," someone whispered to us and Jan and I did.
"I'm holding," the young woman said.
"What does that mean," I asked.
"It means I have a gun," she replied.
A man resembling Peter Lorre was following Jan from across the restaurant. "Lets get out of here," I said. We went out to the street which was very wide. Jan crossed ahead of me with my dog Romeo, accidentally letting go of the leash. I raced across to grab his leash and a bull appeared and sat on me. Then an elephant crossed the street as well. A tow truck came to help me and the driver looked exactly like a young Bob Dylan. This must be his son, I thought, and I woke up. My (bull) dog was leaning on me.

Sunday, April 29, 2018

Loving Spoonfuls

"When I looked at the grandmothers in my own extended family," says Novak, " I realized that not only did they embody the true heart and soul of good food, but they are also hysterically funny. If this was true in my family, it had to be true in others."

Friday, April 27, 2018

Opioid Crisis

Article about one city cancelling the needle exchange.

Thank You Paul Krugman

The War on the Poor

Wednesday, April 25, 2018


I dreamed I was at my dentist's office and they were preparing to auction off antiques that had been part of the decor for decades. A woman in the office showed me a small doll wearing a violet velour gown. Underneath the doll's dress at the belly was a miniature steaming oven for warming small breads.

Sunday, April 22, 2018


“Solitude gives birth to the original in us, to beauty unfamiliar and perilous - to poetry.

But also, it gives birth to the opposite: to the perverse, the illicit, the absurd.”

― Thomas Mann, Death in Venice and Other Tales


“It is love, not reason, that is stronger than death.”
― Thomas Mann, The Magic Mountain

Thomas Mann

“Tolerance becomes a crime when applied to evil.”
― Thomas Mann, The Magic Mountain


One of the more distressing truths of America’s opioid epidemic, which now kills tens of thousands of people every year, is that it isn’t the first such crisis. Across the 19th and 20th centuries, the United States, China and other countries saw drug abuse surge as opium and morphine were used widely as recreational drugs and medicine.

Octopus Reproduction

The male octopus has a modified arm called the hectocotylus, which is about a meter long and holds rows of sperm. Depending on the species, he will either approach a receptive female and insert the arm into her oviduct or take off the arm and give it to her to store in her mantle for later. In the latter scenario, the female keeps the arm until she lays her eggs, at which time she takes the arm out and spreads the sperm over her eggs to fertilize them.

Pets and Brain Chemistry


Friday, April 20, 2018

Treat Everyone...

“Treat everyone you meet like God in drag.”
― Ram Dass

“The most important aspect of love is not in giving or the receiving: it's in the being. When I need love from others, or need to give love to others, I'm caught in an unstable situation. Being in love, rather than giving or taking love, is the only thing that provides stability. Being in love means seeing the Beloved all around me.”
― Ram Dass

“Suffering is part of our training program for becoming wise.”
― Ram Dass

“What you meet in another being is the projection of your own level of evolution.”
― Ram Dass

Ram Dass

“I would like my life to be a statement of love and compassion--and where it isn't, that's where my work lies.”
― Ram Dass

Invention Arises

“I don't think necessity is the mother of invention. Invention . . . arises directly from idleness, possibly also from laziness. To save oneself trouble.”
― Agatha Christie, An Autobiography


“Instinct is a marvelous thing. It can neither be explained nor ignored.”
― Agatha Christie, The Mysterious Affair at Styles

Lion's Mouth

“If you place your head in a lion's mouth, then you cannot complain one day if he happens to bite it off.”
― Agatha Christie

Agatha Christie

“I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow; but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.”
― Agatha Christie

Upton Sinclair

“The great corporation which employed you lied to you, and lied to the whole country—from top to bottom it was nothing but one gigantic lie.”
― Upton Sinclair, The Jungle

Alchemy of the Spirit

“Human beings suffer agonies, and their sad fates become legends; poets write verses about them and playwrights compose dramas, and the remembrance of past grief becomes a source of present pleasure - such is the strange alchemy of the spirit.”
― Upton Sinclair, Dragon's Teeth

Lao Tzu

“The best fighter is never angry.”
― Lao Tzu

Susan Gubar

My father used to say, “A wise man learns from experience, a wiser man still learns from the experiences of others.” I’ve never been a wiser man still. But I have learned, from experience and then from the experience of others, that it is possible to alleviate the isolation of the ill without condescension and with disarming charm.

Susan Gubar, is distinguished emerita professor of English at Indiana University.
Article Imaginative Caregiving

Evolving for Deep Sea



I dreamed I played a movie about Lily and then she appeared for real and people were petting her. When it was time to leave, Lily had crawled into a small space in the wall. I was confused about whether this was digital or tangible reality. "Don't we need to let her out before we go?" I worried.
Then I was house sitting for my friend. I was in her basement removing wet clothes from her washing machine. There was a gigantic boxer in the house with a snaggle-toothed underbite. My husband and I were leery of the dog. He charged into the laundry room. Moments later there were people carrying trays of delicious and exotic hors d'oeuvres. It was a memorial party setting up for someone we'd never met. Then someone said we're moving the party out onto the lawn.

Thursday, April 19, 2018

Pema Chödrön

“Only to the extent that we expose ourselves over and over to annihilation can that which is indestructible in us be found.”
― Pema Chödrön

“We think that the point is to pass the test or to overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don't really get solved. They come together and they fall apart.”
― Pema Chödrön

“To be fully alive, fully human, and completely awake is to be continually thrown out of the nest. To live fully is to be always in no-man's-land, to experience each moment as completely new and fresh. To live is to be willing to die over and over again. ”
― Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times

“Most of us do not take these situations as teachings. We automatically hate them. We run like crazy. We use all kinds of ways to escape -- all addictions stem from this moment when we meet our edge and we just can't stand it. We feel we have to soften it, pad it with something, and we become addicted to whatever it is that seems to ease the pain.”
― Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart: Heartfelt Advice for Hard Times

The Tigers Story

“There is a story of a woman running away from tigers. She runs and runs and the tigers are getting closer and closer. When she comes to the edge of a cliff, she sees some vines there, so she climbs down and holds on to the vines. Looking down, she sees that there are tigers below her as well. She then notices that a mouse is gnawing away at the vine to which she is clinging. She also sees a beautiful little bunch of strawberries close to her, growing out of a clump of grass. She looks up and she looks down. She looks at the mouse. Then she just takes a strawberry, puts it in her mouth, and enjoys it thoroughly. Tigers above, tigers below. This is actually the predicament that we are always in, in terms of our birth and death. Each moment is just what it is. It might be the only moment of our life; it might be the only strawberry we’ll ever eat. We could get depressed about it, or we could finally appreciate it and delight in the preciousness of every single moment of our life.”
― Pema Chödrön, The Wisdom of No Escape: How to Love Yourself and Your World

Glorious and Wretched

“Life is glorious, but life is also wretched. It is both. Appreciating the gloriousness inspires us, encourages us, cheers us up, gives us a bigger perspective, energizes us. We feel connected. But if that's all that's happening, we get arrogant and start to look down on others, and there is a sense of making ourselves a big deal and being really serious about it, wanting it to be like that forever. The gloriousness becomes tinged by craving and addiction. On the other hand, wretchedness--life's painful aspect--softens us up considerably. Knowing pain is a very important ingredient of being there for another person. When you are feeling a lot of grief, you can look right into somebody's eyes because you feel you haven't got anything to lose--you're just there. The wretchedness humbles us and softens us, but if we were only wretched, we would all just go down the tubes. We'd be so depressed, discouraged, and hopeless that we wouldn't have enough energy to eat an apple. Gloriousness and wretchedness need each other. One inspires us, the other softens us. They go together.”
― Pema Chödrön, Start Where You Are: A Guide to Compassionate Living

Pema Chödrön

“The most fundamental aggression to ourselves, the most fundamental harm we can do to ourselves, is to remain ignorant by not having the courage and the respect to look at ourselves honestly and gently.”
― Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times

“The most difficult times for many of us are the ones we give ourselves.”
― Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice For Difficult Times


“You are the sky. Everything else – it’s just the weather.”
― Pema Chödrön

Lao Tzu

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”
― Lao Tzu

“Simplicity, patience, compassion.
These three are your greatest treasures.
Simple in actions and thoughts, you return to the source of being.
Patient with both friends and enemies,
you accord with the way things are.
Compassionate toward yourself,
you reconcile all beings in the world.”
― Lao Tzu, Tao Te Ching

“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”
― Lao Tzu

Wednesday, April 18, 2018

The Italian Porcupine

Here's an Italian version of porcupine meatballs.

Tuesday, April 17, 2018

Grandma has an Affair with Mr. Chang

On my long walk I realized what to make for supper. Porcupine meatballs! I used ground turkey, mixed with freshly chopped garlic chopped onion rice and Adobo and pressure cooked the meatballs on the steamer tray over water for ten minutes. Then I made a quick sauce using the leftover steaming liquid and tomato paste dissolved in it and ladled it over the meatballs. I sauteed fresh broccoli in olive oil and a bit of chicken bouillon we had that too. I said this meal should be called Grandma has an affair with Mr. Chang.

Your Kakistocracy is Collapsing

The Greek root 'kakistos' means “worst.”

The word is pronounced \kak-uh-STAH-kruh-see\, and means “government by the worst people.” The plural form is kakistocracies. Our earliest evidence for its use comes from 1644, when it was used by Paul Gosnold to warn about transforming “our well-temperd Monarchy into a mad kinde of Kakistocracy.” Following this the word had a period of relative inactivity, and reappeared in the early 19th century.

Monday, April 16, 2018

The Insta-Pot Robot Made My Dinner

Yesterday I went swimming for the first time in 10 weeks. It was the right thing for receive-mode. I did get tired but it's the right thing for this phase. It was snowing in the afternoon so I made chili in the insta-pot. It took 22 minutes. I pre-soaked dried kidney beans using the 3 minute boil and 60 minute sit. Then I added 6 chopped onions, the puffed up beans and soaking water, 2.5 pounds of "manager's special" good-looking boneless country ribs and BBQ sauce. I set the time for 22 minutes and walked the dog. When we came back it was ready. All it needed was a small can of tomato paste to thicken it and some salt.

Stephen De Staebler

“Artists don't get down to work until the pain of working is exceeded by the pain of not working.”
-Stephen De Staebler

Jennifer Taitz

From Ex-Husband to Co-Grandparent

Saturday, April 14, 2018

Stacks of Books and Papers

Allergy season is here and I am well aware of the stacks of dusty papers in my office. It's overwhelming!


I dreamed I was at a writer's conference and I couldn't find my way to my room. People had decorated their little rooms and I was lost in the maze.



Friday, April 13, 2018

Devil Kitty

I checked the contents of my swim bag and the towel and suit were damp. My cat had peed on it. I tossed everything including the flip flops into the wash. I am still furious.

A Wonder

There was an attempted break in so they rushed out and adopted a 12 week old puppy. They grumble that he's not house trained. They know nothing about dogs and can't remember the dogs name when I ask. Above them on the top floor two parents raise a brilliant happy toddler and all they see is annoyance. They yell at him in long sentences as if he was able to understand. It's a wonder that anyone in the world survives.

Remedios Varo


Meet it and Live it

“However mean your life is, meet it and live it; do not shun it and call it hard names. It is not so bad as you are. It looks poorest when you are richest. The fault-finder will find faults even in paradise. Love your life, poor as it is. You may perhaps have some pleasant, thrilling, glorious hours, even in a poorhouse. The setting sun is reflected from the windows of the almshouse as brightly as from the rich man's abode; the snow melts before its door as early in the spring. I do not see but a quiet mind may live as contentedly there, and have as cheering thoughts, as in a palace.”
― Henry David Thoreau, Walden


“There is no remedy for love but to love more.”
― Henry David Thoreau


“Nothing makes the earth seem so spacious as to have friends at a distance; they make the latitudes and longitudes.”
― Henry David Thoreau


“Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth.”
― Henry David Thoreau, Walden


“You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment. Fools stand on their island of opportunities and look toward another land. There is no other land; there is no other life but this.”
― Henry David Thoreau


“I find it wholesome to be alone the greater part of the time. To be in company, even with the best, is soon wearisome and dissipating. I love to be alone. I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude.”
― Henry David Thoreau, Walden

Thursday, April 12, 2018

The Clown Fish

The tale of the stressed out clown fish is a reminder of the myriad ways in which humans are damaging the ocean.

The Rescue Dog Scam


Long Walk

My downtown walk was not enough so I walked to the Blackstone reservoir. When I came home I had a cup of strong Yorkshire tea.
When I came back the Honda-camping kids were gone and the dead unregistered cars have been notified with day-glow orange stickers.

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When the Soul Lies Down

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”
― Rumi

“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing
and rightdoing there is a field.
I'll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass
the world is too full to talk about.”
― Rumi

“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”
― Rumi

“Stop acting so small. You are the universe in ecstatic motion.”
― Rumi

“What you seek is seeking you.”
― Rumi

“The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along.”
― Rumi, The Illuminated Rumi

“Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form.”
― Rumi

“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.”
― Rumi

“Dance, when you're broken open. Dance, if you've torn the bandage off. Dance in the middle of the fighting. Dance in your blood. Dance when you're perfectly free.”
― Rumi

“If you are irritated by every rub, how will your mirror be polished?”
― Rumi

“You were born with wings, why prefer to crawl through life?”
― Rumi

“Forget safety.
Live where you fear to live.
Destroy your reputation.
Be notorious.”
― Rumi

“Don't be satisfied with stories, how things have gone with others. Unfold your own myth.”
― Rumi, The Essential Rumi

The Lost Boys

Receive mode is back. I walked Romeo early this morning and noticed the kids were camping in the parking lot again. Someones car alarm went off and I could see the kids waking up in back of the green Honda. It's a real tent city back here with 4 unregistered cars, 2 draped in fabric for privacy and a big couch. The lost boys of Woonsocket have a whole thing going on back here. I hope the new landlord nips it before it escalates any further.

Wednesday, April 11, 2018

Poplar Alder Juniper

Breathing is a challenge!

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Crazy Art World

“Perhaps if you truly want to understand a drawing, you have to just eat it.”

Library Dog

April is always a heavy month for me. I am feeling the intense effects of pollen and mold allergies as well as waning energy. It's all okay really. I am currently baking six loaves of bread and my dog is patiently waiting for his downtown walk. I am so glad he doesn't bark when I tie him out front and run into the library to get my books.

Six Loaves

I am baking six loaves on this damp gray day. They are sourdough wheat-berry oat breads.

Food Disasters

Yesterday I had two food disasters. The first was making pancakes improv style using too much pumpkin puree and the second was making popcorn in a pot that had cayenne flavors leftover and it influenced the taste of the popcorn. I ate them anyway since I am unable to throw food away.

Monday, April 09, 2018

Sunday, April 08, 2018

Helaine Olen

Why ask a man to take responsibility for his bad behavior when you can point the finger at a woman for calling him on it? There is a phrase for this: “double standard.”

Opioid Epidemic Moves to Ohio Courtroom


Sofija Stefanovic

By Sofija Stefanovic
Smells Like Home
Ms. Stefanovic is the author of “Miss Ex-Yugoslavia.”

Teaching Breadmaking in Woonsocket

I had a great time teaching 5 new students how to make their own multigrain sourdough bread at Neighborworks Cafe Space yesterday. I sent my students home with their pairs of braided loaves to bake in their own home ovens. I did the same thing and baked mine when we got home. We ate fresh bread for dinner. Life is good. Soon there will be an outdoor wood fired oven on the patio for community baking! This is how we grow a community one bite at a time.

Andrew Penn

Saturday, April 07, 2018

RI Farmers


Be Kind to Everyone. Everyone is Fighting a Great Battle.

"Be kind to everyone, everyone is fighting a great battle."

We were raised to take care of the childish emotional lives of our narcissistic parents. This was not a good way to discover who we were and what OUR needs were.

Now that they are dead we have to raise ourselves. Better late than never.

Be healthy live long. Life has just begun. Find out who you are.

Nobody knows what they think until they start writing. Writing is therefore a crucial form of therapy, more valuable than talk therapy. More rapid than medication. For this I can attest.

You can't take in unless you let out! Get cracking.


Friday, April 06, 2018


My neighbor V brought me this Brazilian dish last night. Delicious.
Canjica (Portuguese pronunciation: [kɐ̃ˈʒikɐ]), mugunzá ([muɡũˈza]) or mungunzá ([mũɡũˈza]) is a Brazilian sweet dish, associated with winter festivals, which in Brazil is in June (Festa Junina).

The dish is a porridge made with white de-germed whole maize kernels (canjica), cooked with milk, sugar and cinnamon until tender. Coconut and coconut milk as well as some cloves are also added, mainly in the northern variety of this recipe (Northeastern variety). Other ingredients may be added, such as peanuts and sweetened condensed milk.

The name canjica is prevalent in central-southern Brazil, while mugunzá is used in the northern states (where canjica means a different dish, made with unripe cooked corn juice).

This food is of African influence, firstly created by Brazilian black slaves during the colonial times.

In Colombia and other Latin American countries, one dish similar to canjica cooked corn, known as mazamorra, is widespread in the traditional cuisine.

Andy Clark

Clark not only rejects the idea of a sealed-off self—he dislikes it. He is a social animal: an eager collaborator, a convener of groups. The story he tells of his thinking life is crowded with other people: talks he’s been to, papers he’s read, colleagues he’s met, talks they’ve been to, papers they’ve read. Their lives and ideas are inextricable from his. His doors are open, his borders undefended. It is perhaps because he is this sort of person that he both welcomed the extended mind and perceived it in the first place. It is clear to him that the way you understand yourself and your relation to the world is not just a matter of arguments: your life’s experiences construct what you expect and want to be true.

Kairos and Chronos

What is the difference between the two concepts of time kairos and chronos?
James Quek:
The best way to differentiate between chronos and kairos is to see time as either a flowing river which carries us away (chronos), or a quiet lake which we swim in (kairos). We all experience time as both, all the time, in whatever we do. We experience chronos when we are impatiently waiting for something to be over and done with. We experience kairos when we are so deeply engrossed in an activity that time seems to stand still. In chronos, we are stressed—in kairos, we are refreshed.

Church Bells

We've been hearing the neighborhood church bells...
Then I remembered it's easter for the Romanian Orthodox church.
Orthodox Easter 2018 and 2019 - - Romania Public ...

Easter in Romania is celebrated according to the Julian Calendar used by the Eastern Orthodox Church, rather than on the date used in Catholic, Protestant, and other Western churches that use the Gregorian Calendar. “Orthodox Easter” often, but not always, occurs a little later in the year than does non-Orthodox Easter.
Fri, Apr 6
Orthodox Good Friday
Sun, Apr 8
Orthodox Easter Sunday
Mon, Apr 9
Orthodox Easter Monday

It's Snowing!!

Ginger Cayenne Lemon Honey Beverage

My brother suggested I make this beverage for my cough. I simmered slices of fresh ginger root, cayenne, honey and lemon slices. It feels good.

Elephant Rejuvenation Camp


This Morning

This morning when I helped my husband carry his lunch and coffee to the car I noticed a small dark green Honda with the back windows covered in blankets, parked back here. I also noticed that the windows had moisture on them. I realized there were people sleeping in the car. I spoke to the kids a few hours later when they were up for the day folding their magenta mattress into the trunk. I suggested they call my friend in City Hall and she could help them find a safe place to live. One of the kids from the neighborhood who lives here came over to talk to me and he said his blind mother fell and broke both hands so now he is her sole caretaker. It's high drama all the time for my neighbors.

Good Book

I'm reading a book I can't put down. A memoir called MENTAL by Jaime Lowe.

A Letter to Rachel

Ram Dass wrote a letter some years ago to a family who had lost their young daughter, Rachel. Although he wrote it to these two parents specifically, everything in this letter applies to anyone who has lost a child.

Dear Steve and Anita,

Rachel finished her work on earth, and left the stage in a manner that leaves those of us left behind with a cry of agony in our hearts, as the fragile thread of our faith is dealt with so violently. Is anyone strong enough to stay conscious through such teaching as you are receiving? Probably very few. And even they would only have a whisper of equanimity and peace amidst the screaming trumpets of their rage, grief, horror and desolation.

I can’t assuage your pain with any words, nor should I. For your pain is Rachel’s legacy to you. Not that she or I would inflict such pain by choice, but there it is. And it must burn its purifying way to completion. For something in you dies when you bear the unbearable, and it is only in that dark night of the soul that you are prepared to see as God sees, and to love as God loves.

Now is the time to let your grief find expression. No false strength. Now is the time to sit quietly and speak to Rachel, and thank her for being with you these few years, and encourage her to go on with whatever her work is, knowing that you will grow in compassion and wisdom from this experience. In my heart, I know that you and she will meet again and again, and recognize the many ways in which you have known each other. And when you meet you will know, in a flash, what now it is not given to you to know: Why this had to be the way it was.

Our rational minds can never understand what has happened, but our hearts – if we can keep them open to God – will find their own intuitive way. Rachel came through you to do her work on earth, which includes her manner of death. Now her soul is free, and the love that you can share with her is invulnerable to the winds of changing time and space.

In that deep love,
include me.

In love,

Ram Dass


I was in a house, my house in the dream but it was different than my real house. I was on the first floor rear of the house closing the storm windows when a gigantic alligator came towards me. I let go of the window and it smashed. I ran around the front of the house and rang the doorbells. My husband came to the door soaked from the shower wrapped in a towel. I told him about the alligator. He said go to the roof. Why, I asked, to jump?
No, to be safe.

Ram Dass

Ram Dass Meditates on Learning to Grieve

Ram Dass –

It is important, as we get older, to learn how to grieve. Although this may sound self-evident, experience has taught me that it is not. In a culture that emphasizes stoicism and forward movement, in which time is deemed “of the essence,” and there is little toleration for slowness, inwardness, and melancholy, grieving – a healthy, necessary aspect of life – is too often overlooked. As we get older, of course, and losses mount, the need for conscious grieving becomes more pronounced. Only by learning how to grieve can we hope to leave the past behind and come into the present moment.

The older we get, the more we lose; this is the law of impermanence. We lose loved ones, cherished dreams, physical strength, work, and relationships. Often, it seems like loss upon loss. All these losses bring up enormous grief that we must be prepared to embrace completely, if we are to live with open hearts.

My dear friend Stephen Levine has recommended that we build temples specifically for the purpose of grieving, ritual sites where we can feel safe to pour out the sadness and loss that we feel. In the Jewish tradition of sitting shiva, and in the traditional Irish wake, we find such outlets for extended grieving, but these rituals are becoming rare in our culture and are not frequently practiced.

Over the years, in working with people who are grieving, I’ve encouraged them first of all to surrender to the experience of their pain. To counteract our natural tendency to turn away from pain, we open to it as fully as possible and allow our hearts to break. We must take enough time to remember our losses – be they friends or loved ones passed away, the death of long-held hopes or dreams, the loss of homes, careers, or countries, or health we may never get back again. Rather than close ourselves to grief, it helps to realize that we only grieve for what we love.

In allowing ourselves to grieve, we learn that the process is not cut and dried. It’s more like a spiral that brings us to a place of release, abates for a time, then continues on a deeper level. Often, when grieving, we think that it’s over, only to find ourselves swept away by another wave of intense feeling. For this reason, it’s important to be patient with the process, and not be in a hurry to put our grief behind us.

While the crisis stage of grief does pass in its own time – and each person’s grief has its own timetable – deep feelings don’t disappear completely. But ultimately you come to the truth of the adage that “love is stronger than death.” I once met with a girl whose boyfriend was killed in Central America. She was grieving and it was paralyzing her life. I characterized it for her this way. “Let’s say you’re in ‘wise-woman training.'” If she’s in wise-woman training, everything in her life must be grist for the mill. Her relationship with this man would become part of the wisdom in her. But first she had to see that her relationship with him is between Souls. They no longer have two incarnated bodies to share, so she had to find the Soul connection. Two Souls can access each other without an incarnation.

When my Guru died in 1973, I assumed that because of the important part he played in my life, and the love I felt for him, I would be inundated with grief. Surprisingly, I was not. In time, I came to realize why. He and I were so well established in Soul love that, in the years since he left his body, his palpable presence in my life has continued unabated.
– Ram Dass

Thursday, April 05, 2018

Working from Home

The neighborhood is noisy from a rusted roof vent belonging to the building next door. On windy days like TODAY it sounds like an air raid siren.

Julie Fast


Why are People with Bipolar Drawn to Drinking & Substance Abuse?
What society often doesn’t understand: Untreated bipolar disorder symptoms are far more painful than what happens to us due to substance abuse.

by Julie A. Fast
What society simply doesn’t understand is that untreated bipolar disorder is far, far more painful than what happens with us due to substance abuse. We choose being drunk over being suicidal. Think about that.

Empathy Gap


4 Types of Shame

Change Your Brain

Writing a daily diary can literally change your brain

Robots Can't Pick Strawberries

My Husband's Metaphor

The car is up on blocks and the whole family is inside making vroom vroom noises.

Revised Away

He knew from his Tiananmen experience what that meant. “There is no way to resist,” he said. “Except to die.”
“I hate it when history is lost or revised away,” he told me. “The erasure of what happened at Tiananmen is something I won’t allow. It’ll happen over my dead body.

“All it Takes is One Mistake,” He said. “Somebody fires. And Then What?”

“We are so lucky here in this country when you look at our borders,” said Maj. Gen. Paul Eaton, a retired veteran of the Iraq war. “We’ve got the Pacific on one side, the Atlantic on the other and allies to the north and the south. Mexico is not an adversary. Why would you present this offensive barrier to a friendly country?”

50 Years Later...

Detectives used ground-penetrating sonar to identify the location of the bones, and dug about four feet underground, Gigante said. Sensing that they were close, authorities dug deeper. At about seven feet underground, they noticed a jawbone. Then, they found the remains — a full skeleton.

“I just broke down,” Blampied told the Suffolk Times after learning the news that her mother’s remains had been identified. “I just broke down and cried. It is so hard to believe what has happened. I still can’t believe it. This was my mother.”

The missing-person investigation is now a homicide investigation, police said. Although it’s unclear whether a medical examiner will be able to determine a cause of death, Blampied says she’s convinced that Boken killed her mother.

Medical Beer

Beer is Prescribed in Hospitals

Benny And Mia

Adopt them!


From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

A burlesque is a literary, dramatic or musical work intended to cause laughter by caricaturing the manner or spirit of serious works, or by ludicrous treatment of their subjects.[1] The word derives from the Italian burlesco, which, in turn, is derived from the Italian burla – a joke, ridicule or mockery.[2][3]

Burlesque overlaps in meaning with caricature, parody and travesty, and, in its theatrical sense, with extravaganza, as presented during the Victorian era.[4] "Burlesque" has been used in English in this literary and theatrical sense since the late 17th century. It has been applied retrospectively to works of Chaucer and Shakespeare and to the Graeco-Roman classics.[5] Contrasting examples of literary burlesque are Alexander Pope's The Rape of the Lock and Samuel Butler's Hudibras. An example of musical burlesque is Richard Strauss's 1890 Burleske for piano and orchestra. Examples of theatrical burlesques include W. S. Gilbert's Robert the Devil and the A. C. Torr – Meyer Lutz shows, including Ruy Blas and the Blasé Roué.

A later use of the term, particularly in the United States, refers to performances in a variety show format. These were popular from the 1860s to the 1940s, often in cabarets and clubs, as well as theatres, and featured bawdy comedy and female striptease. Some Hollywood films attempted to recreate the spirit of these performances from the 1930s to the 1960s, or included burlesque-style scenes within dramatic films, such as 1972's Cabaret and 1979's All That Jazz, among others. There has been a resurgence of interest in this format since the 1990s.[6][7]

Howling Wind

The wind is fierce today but the sun is out. I am full of rage!

The Power Differential

In Therapy Article
In Relationships Article

“The whole community came outside,” he added. “People were going crazy. It was a nightmare out there.”

“All he did was just walk around the neighborhood,” Wilson said. “He speaks to himself, usually he has an orange Bible or a rosary in his hand. He never had a problem with anyone.”

Madeleine Albright Warns:

Madeleine Albright Warns: Don't Let Fascism Go 'Unnoticed Until It's Too Late'

While Albright does not call Trump a fascist, she says that he is "the most anti-democratic leader that I have studied in American history."

"We're not fulfilling the role that we're supposed to," she says of the United States today. "I believe very much that democracy in the United States is resilient [and] that people can be skeptical about things that are going on, but I really am afraid that we are taking things for granted."

On her belief that President Trump is "anti-democratic"

What he's trying to do is undermine the press and [he] has disdain for the judiciary, and the electoral process and minorities, and I think that his instincts are not ones that are democratic. He is interested, basically, I think, in exacerbating those divisions that I talked about. ... I've picked up that phrase "see something, say something," and I am seeing some things that are the kinds of things that we have seen in other countries, and so I am saying not only should we say something, but we have to do something about it. ...

I think people may disagree with the president of the opposing party ... but we normally have believed that the president tells the truth. And I know I'm very worried about the fact that there are deliberate ways of misstating the issue, and then the people think, "If the president said it, it must be right," when it's just a deliberate untruth.

Persona Non-Grata

persona non grata
adjective per·so·na non gra·ta \ pər-ˈsō-nə-ˌnän-ˈgra-tə , -ˈgrä- \

Definition of persona non grata
: personally unacceptable or unwelcome

Surgeon General

Important message: carry antidote

Electronic Pet Rocks

Social Media as High-Tech CB Radio

From winter storms to WikiLeaks tsunamis, we're seeing the power (and limits) of social-media sharing

The Crime of Puberty

I realize upon reflection that the crime I committed was moving from child to woman. This intensified my mother's controlling behavior and subsequently became the campaign of hate against me. She recruited my step father who was my biggest fan. I was once the favorite child and I became publicly despised, ridiculed and shamed. So I walked away and the hatred became more intense with frequent threats. I stayed away found jobs and a car and never returned. The damage still holds today. What remains of my family is nothing. It's like visiting a post nuclear war site.

If People Cannot Write Well, They Cannot Think Well

“If people cannot write well, they cannot think well, and if they cannot think well, others will do their thinking for them.”
― George Orwell

Seizes Power

“We know that no one ever seizes power with the intention of relinquishing it.”
― George Orwell, 1984

He Wears a Mask

“At 50, everyone has the face he deserves.”
― George Orwell

“He wears a mask, and his face grows to fit it.”
― George Orwell, Shooting an Elephant


“One does not establish a dictatorship in order to safeguard a revolution; one makes the revolution in order to establish the dictatorship.”
― George Orwell, 1984

Nervous System

“Your worst enemy, he reflected, was your nervous system. At any moment the tension inside you was liable to translate itself into some visible symptom.”
― George Orwell, 1984

Now Do You Begin to Understand Me?

“Men can only be happy when they do not assume that the object of life is happiness.”
― George Orwell

“To die hating them, that was freedom.”
― George Orwell, 1984

“Of pain you could wish only one thing: that it should stop. Nothing in the world was so bad as physical pain. In the face of pain there are no heroes.”
― George Orwell, 1984

“The object of terrorism is terrorism. The object of oppression is oppression. The object of torture is torture. The object of murder is murder. The object of power is power. Now do you begin to understand me?”
― George Orwell, 1984


“Four legs good, two legs bad.”
― George Orwell, Animal Farm

Not Thinking

“Orthodoxy means not thinking--not needing to think. Orthodoxy is unconsciousness.”
― George Orwell, 1984


“Journalism is printing what someone else does not want printed: everything else is public relations.”
― George Orwell


“Man is the only creature that consumes without producing. He does not give milk, he does not lay eggs, he is too weak to pull the plough, he cannot run fast enough to catch rabbits. Yet he is lord of all the animals. He sets them to work, he gives back to them the bare minimum that will prevent them from starving, and the rest he keeps for himself.”
― George Orwell, Animal Farm

Nowhere Else

“Reality exists in the human mind, and nowhere else.”
― George Orwell, 1984


“People sleep peaceably in their beds at night only because rough men stand ready to do violence on their behalf.”
― George Orwell

The Choice

“The choice for mankind lies between freedom and happiness and for the great bulk of mankind, happiness is better.”
― George Orwell, 1984

A Minority of One

“Being in a minority, even in a minority of one, did not make you mad. There was truth and there was untruth, and if you clung to the truth even against the whole world, you were not mad.”
― George Orwell, 1984


“Writing a book is a horrible, exhausting struggle, like a long bout with some painful illness. One would never undertake such a thing if one were not driven on by some demon whom one can neither resist nor understand.”
― George Orwell


“Until they became conscious they will never rebel, and until after they have rebelled they cannot become conscious.”
― George Orwell, 1984


“If liberty means anything at all, it means the right to tell people what they do not want to hear.”
― George Orwell

Political Language

“Political language is designed to make lies sound truthful and murder respectable, and to give an appearance of solidity to pure wind.”
― George Orwell

Propaganda as Narrative

“The most effective way to destroy people is to deny and obliterate their own understanding of their history.”
― George Orwell

Mary Oliver

'Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift.'

— Mary Oliver

Every Generation

“Every generation imagines itself to be more intelligent than the one that went before it, and wiser than the one that comes after it.”
― George Orwell


“Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood.”
― George Orwell, 1984

Treating a Cough


5 Questions

Is the person usually negative and unhappy in their career, with family, relationships?
Do you feel exhausted after spending time with the person?
Is the person demanding and self-absorbed?
Is there a lot of drama and crisis in the person's life?
Does the person have a victim's or helpless mentality?

George Orwell

“In a time of deceit telling the truth is a revolutionary act.”
― George Orwell

Jeanne Graner Krochta

"Strong social support is one of the keys to happiness and good health. Making an effort to improve relationships with people already in your life is one way to increase your social support."
— Jeanne Graner Krochta, L.P.

Wednesday, April 04, 2018

Start the Day

I have to start my day with the wisdom of the ages to go with my coffee.

The Flu

Drink lots of fluids. Lay low.

Nation-Wide Hunger Strike

Perhaps the nation should go on a hunger strike to get this political administration out.

A hunger strike is a method of non-violent resistance or pressure in which participants fast as an act of political protest, or to provoke feelings of guilt in others, usually with the objective to achieve a specific goal, such as a policy change. Most hunger strikers will take liquids but not solid food.

In cases where an entity (usually the state) has or is able to obtain custody of the hunger striker (such as a prisoner), the hunger strike is often terminated by the custodial entity through the use of force-feeding.

Tuesday, April 03, 2018

Arthur Miller:“The best work that anybody ever writes is the work that is on the verge of embarrassing him, always.”

“Everything we are is at every moment alive in us.”
― Arthur Miller

“Just remember, kid, you can quicker get back a million dollars that was stole than a word that you gave away.”
― Arthur Miller, A View from the Bridge: A Play in Two Acts

“Don't be seduced into thinking that that which does not make a profit is without value.”
― Arthur Miller

“Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets.”
― Arthur Miller, The Ride Down Mt. Morgan

“Betrayal is the only truth that sticks.”
― Arthur Miller

“Until an hour before the Devil fell, God thought him beautiful in Heaven.”
― Arthur Miller, The Crucible

“Because it is my name! Because I cannot have another in my life! Because I lie and sign myself to lies! Because I am not worth the dust on the feet of them that hang! How may I live without my name? I have given you my soul; leave me my name!”
― Arthur Miller, The Crucible

“Why am I trying to become what I don’t want to be … when all I want is out there, waiting for me the minute I say I know who I am.”
― Arthur Miller, Death of a Salesman

“The jungle is dark but full of diamonds, Willy.”
― Arthur Miller, Death Of A Salesman

“I speak my own sins; I cannot judge another. I have no tongue for it.”
― Arthur Miller, The Crucible

“The best work that anybody ever writes is the work that is on the verge of embarrassing him, always.”
― Arthur Miller

“The two most common elements in the world are hydrogen and stupidity.”
― Arthur Miller

“Life, woman, life is God's most precious gift; no principle, however glorious, may justify the taking of it.”
― Arthur Miller, The Crucible

“I realized what a ridiculous lie my whole life has been.”
― Arthur Miller, Death of a Salesman

“If I have to be alone I want to be by myself.”
― Arthur Miller

“A small man can be just as exhausted as a great man.”
― Arthur Miller, Death of a Salesman

“You can't eat the orange and throw the peel away - a man is not a piece of fruit.”
― Arthur Miller, Death of a Salesman

“I stopped in the middle of that building and I saw — the sky. I saw the things that I love in this world. The work and the food and time time to sit and smoke. And I looked at the pen and said to myself, what the hell am I grabbing this for? Why am I trying to become what I don't want to be? What am I doing in an office, making a contemptuous, begging fool of myself, when all I want is out there, waiting for me the minute I say I know who I am! Why can't I say that, Willy?”
― Arthur Miller, Death of a Salesman

“You are pulling down heaven and raising up a whore”
― Arthur Miller, The Crucible

“It is rare for people to be asked the question which puts them squarely in front of themselves”
― Arthur Miller, The Crucible

“Chris: I don't know why it is, but every time I reach out for something I want, I have to pull back because other people will suffer.”
― Arthur Miller, All My Sons

“'s better for a man just to walk away.
But if you can't walk away?
I guess that's when it's tough.”
― Arthur Miller, Death of a Salesman

“A child's spirit is like a child, you can never catch it by running after it; you must stand still, and, for love, it will soon itself come back.”
― Arthur Miller, The Crucible

“The very impulse to write springs from an inner chaos crying for order - for meaning.”
― Arthur Miller

“A good newspaper, I suppose, is a nation talking to itself.”
― Arthur Miller

“If a person measures his spiritual fulfillment in terms of cosmic visions, surpassing peace of mind, or ecstasy, then he is not likely to know much spiritual fulfillment. If, however, he measures it in terms of enjoying a sunrise, being warmed by a child's smile, or being able to help someone have a better day, then he is likely to know much spiritual fulfillment. ”
― Arthur Miller

“I believe in work. If somebody doesn't create something, however small it may be, he gets sick. An awful lot of people feel that they're treading water -- that if they vanished in smoke, it wouldn't mean anything at all in this world. And that's a despairing and destructive feeling. It'll kill you.”
― Arthur Miller

“We are what we always were in Salem, but now the little crazy children are jangling the keys of the kingdom, and common vengeance writes the law!”
― Arthur Miller, The Crucible

Books are well written, or badly written. That is all

“Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.”
― Oscar Wilde

“Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.”
― Oscar Wilde

“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”
― Oscar Wilde

“I am so clever that sometimes I don't understand a single word of what I am saying.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Happy Prince and Other Stories

“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”
― Oscar Wilde, Lady Windermere's Fan

“If one cannot enjoy reading a book over and over again, there is no use in reading it at all.”
― Oscar Wilde

“It is what you read when you don't have to that determines what you will be when you can't help it.”
― Oscar Wilde

“The books that the world calls immoral are books that show the world its own shame.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

“The truth is rarely pure and never simple.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Importance of Being Earnest

“Yes: I am a dreamer. For a dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Critic as Artist

“You can never be overdressed or overeducated.”
― Oscar Wilde

“Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.”
― Oscar Wilde

“Never love anyone who treats you like you're ordinary.”
― Oscar Wilde

“Women are meant to be loved, not to be understood.”
― Oscar Wilde, Lord Arthur Savile's Crime and Other Stories

“A good friend will always stab you in the front.”
― Oscar Wilde

“I don't want to go to heaven. None of my friends are there.”
― Oscar Wilde

“Anyone who lives within their means suffers from a lack of imagination.”
― Oscar Wilde

“You will always be fond of me. I represent to you all the sins you never had the courage to commit.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future.”
― Oscar Wilde

“I am not young enough to know everything.”
― Oscar Wilde

“The heart was made to be broken.”
― Oscar Wilde

“You don't love someone for their looks, or their clothes, or for their fancy car, but because they sing a song only you can hear.”
― Oscar Wilde

“A thing is not necessarily true because a man dies for it.”
― Oscar Wilde

“Experience is merely the name men gave to their mistakes.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

“Everything in the world is about sex except sex. Sex is about power.”
― Oscar Wilde

“Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth.”
― Oscar Wilde

“The very essence of romance is uncertainty.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Importance of Being Earnest and Other Plays

“Those who find ugly meanings in beautiful things are corrupt without being charming. This is a fault. Those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are the cultivated. For these there is hope. They are the elect to whom beautiful things mean only Beauty. There is no such thing as a moral or an immoral book. Books are well written, or badly written. That is all.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

“I think God, in creating man, somewhat overestimated his ability.”
― Oscar Wilde

“I never travel without my diary. One should always have something sensational to read in the train.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Importance of Being Earnest

Oscar Wilde

“Actors are so fortunate. They can choose whether they will appear in tragedy or in comedy, whether they will suffer or make merry, laugh or shed tears. But in real life it is different. Most men and women are forced to perform parts for which they have no qualifications. Our Guildensterns play Hamlet for us, and our Hamlets have to jest like Prince Hal. The world is a stage, but the play is badly cast.”
― Oscar Wilde, Lord Arthur Savile's Crime and Other Stories

Embarrassed Millionaires

Socialism never took root in America because the poor see themselves not as an exploited proletariat, but as temporarily embarrassed millionaires.
-John Steinbeck

If you think American politics is a rigged shell game, where the views of the rich and powerful count but those of regular Americans don’t, then two prominent political scientists agree with you.

Jane Crow

She was caught up in what lawyers and others who represent families say is a troubling and longstanding phenomenon: the power of Children’s Services to take children from their parents on the grounds that the child’s safety is at risk, even with scant evidence.

Child Abuse

I am deeply upset by this story