In a curious way I liked my job--in the beginning, at least. It made me think and see as I had never done before.In those early days I visualized my mind as a dark room with many doors. I functioned best with several doors open. Sometimes I opened more doors, let in more light, risked the truth. If anyone semed to perceive a distant threat in my remarks or actions, I closed all the doors but one. That was the safest position. Don DeLillo Americana