New Year, New Friends

No begging, no advertising, no selling oneself to be loved. Self love. Dog love. Kitchen love, neighborhood love.

I  know a woman who keeps trying to manipulate me and I feel it viscerally. No thank you my body says.  She does not work but I have multiple jobs. She never seems to acknowledge that because she is stuck at age 14.

Then there are those who ask you to put them in your calendar because they are coming to town on this date and say want to see you but then they go off radar. Are the going to show up?

I knew a woman who I knew from age 19. She expected a dog and pony show every time she was on the east coast. And each time she would bring a new husband to meet me. I complied, baking cooking feeding until the fourth time I was unable to do it  physically and emotionally and she was furious and blamed me for abandoning her during her time of need. Don't ever talk to me again she shouted. 

So I didn't. 

I felt relief. 

I am just going to keep on doing my thing.