Deserving

I have a huge problem with deserving. As I was told by my mother, in a million daily ways that I did not deserve to live.

I am 62 years old.  I think it's time to let down some of these heavy bags I'm carrying. Perhaps I should start with unpacking them. 

I did not deserve to eat, read, digest, sleep, breathe, think, rest, meditate, bathe, join the family on vacation. This is old news but I still struggle with DESERVING.